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written concerning december 30th:
k, so. i have been telling myself "ya know claire, whatever, nobody in your life right now would want to be with you, date you, whatever, so you should just quit looking. give up on the whole damn thing, all that." so i was giving up on it all. but it's when you're not looking that things come to you, right?
yesterday i was sent to register 4 just as i was coming in, and mom was buying stuff at register 3. well, i was just kind of waiting on the cashier at 4, and then i felt someone touch my left arm, so i turned that way, saw a bit of red-orange sleeve leaving my view, and turned right. and i saw seth there. and i was like "oh.. hi :D" and we talked a little bit. then he went and did some shopping before work, since he was like 45 minutes early. he came to my register to check out; possibly cause it was the shortest line, not sure.
and then he clocked in at 4:45ish, i guess. not sure. he was on gm side till he went to his break, i was on grocery. i saw him come over and close his till after his break, i guess, and wondered wtf he was doing, never really found out. but as i was going home, i looked at the board where they have where everybody is written down and i didn't see his name. i was wondering where the fuck he was. so i said whatever, went and clocked out, wrote down my schedule, and was leaving, and he was door greeting on grocery. so i stood there and talked with him for like 30 minutes. told him i had to run home to get some money cause i had to do some shopping, but that i'd be back in a few. ran home, talked to mom a bit, and she asked who that cute guy i was talking to when she was leaving was. haha. that was weird.
ran back up to walmart, talked with him for another 15 or so minutes, and knowing that he went home at 10:15 told him i was gonna go run and do my shopping but that i'd probably be back by. went and got what i needed, kind of took my time, talked to some people (we were out of the conditioner i wanted. boo). then i went back out, and talked to him some; he was like "what took you so long? you got like 3 things and took like half an hour?" but he was silly; it only took me like 15 minutes at the most. so i talked with him till they sent someone to send him home, and he was like "hmmm, i need to do some shopping before i go home too; my brother's eating all my food" so i offered to shop with him, since i didn't fancy going back home. so we uh, shopped. and talked a lot. it was nice. then we were going to check out to leave, and he had to see the chick that is stalkery obsessed with him; it's funny as sin cause everybody knows she's obsessed with him, and i make fun of him for it. ^_^ and he needed to borrow my discount card, so i let him. i wonder if he'll figure out my last name the way i figured out his? or if he already figured it out somehow? meh. curiousity.
so we were leaving, and he's like "where'd ya park at?" so we went over to my car, and he's like "ohhhh, i should've figured you'd have the nice car. did you buy that from what you'd made here?" and i told him how my dad bought it, blah blah, and he said i was spoiled. bah. and we stood out there talking for freaking ever. at one point he mentioned something like "hey, can i get your number?" when i told him the thing about my mom (he also said he was gonna try and find her someday and go up to her and be like "so uh, you think i'm hot, eh?" buahhaa), and i was like "well.. do you want it? i'll give it to you :)" and gave him my number. we'll see if he calls me. :D then at like 11:40 dad called me, and i just didn't answer it, and he's like "well, my mom's probably worried as hell over me not being home, so i should get going" and yeah... i went home. happy as all get out. at 11:45, having gotten off of work at 9.
so uh, yeah.
31st, i talk to him some... tell him i still don't know if the plans for where i was going for NYE were still on, so i didn't really have much to do for NYE. so he tells me i'm going to a party with him in haven. so i'm like, "sure, okay. give me a call later and tell me how to get there." and he calls me at like 9, saying that his friend in haven who was throwing the party got his ankle shattered when he got jumped by some guys from colwich. so instead, he's gonna be hanging out at home, in andale, with his brother, cody, and his sister-in-law, kat. and that i'm welcome to join if i want to. so i, obviously, did.
started the evening with vodka and mountain dew, and we started playing circle of death. they all wanted to get me tanked as hell, since, ya know, i'm the new person. joy. and they made me drink beer, so that blew. i hate beer. and i got pretty drunk. and so did seth. i think cody and kat did as well, but i was too drunk to notice. at midnight, cody and kat kissed, and were like "hey, you two. kiss. now" and we did. although it was a bit weird and i was kind of falling (drunk say wha). go me. and then i managed to do my puking and then depressing drunk act again. whoohoo. but seth was good, and sat there with me and helped comfort me. which was so fucking great. then we went in, and kind of just sat around and talked for a while. and i washed some of my hair, cause i puked on it. ewww.
then at like 2, we all called it time for bed, and seth told me that i was sleeping in his bed, with him or without him, my call. and i totally said with him. ya know, cause it was a cold night, right? ;P we ended up making out hardcore like all night long (he's saving himself for marriage, very respectable), well, at least till 4ish. we talked about a lot of stupid random stuff in there too. early on, he said to me "so, uh... i'm kind of confused here. are we going out now, or what?" and i just said "i'd love it if we were, but i'll let you be the judge of that here." and he just kissed me and said yeah. then we both finally passed the fuck out. then we both woke up again before 6 (when the alarms were set, so i could get home), and were going at it supah hardcore, and then at like 6:30 we finally got up. and he told me that i was the first girl he was comfortable enough with to take his shirt off with. so that was pretty special, in it's own little way.
so we then got up, and sat around for a good little while, goofing off, etc. and... the greatest part of it all? i was SO goddamn comfortable with him. he's the first guy that i've been around period that i am instantly that comfortable with... and i love that. there's been this like... instant ka-pow chemistry there, the whole time. gah, it's wonderful. i can't express in words how great it is to just have seen this guy a while ago, and thought "hey, he's cute..." and then after a while get to talking to him, and think "hey, he's fun to talk with..." and then after another little while you're wrestling under the covers with him in a completely non-sexual way, and thinking "god this is amazing."
...bah, i could go on and on forever. >.>
k, so. i have been telling myself "ya know claire, whatever, nobody in your life right now would want to be with you, date you, whatever, so you should just quit looking. give up on the whole damn thing, all that." so i was giving up on it all. but it's when you're not looking that things come to you, right?
yesterday i was sent to register 4 just as i was coming in, and mom was buying stuff at register 3. well, i was just kind of waiting on the cashier at 4, and then i felt someone touch my left arm, so i turned that way, saw a bit of red-orange sleeve leaving my view, and turned right. and i saw seth there. and i was like "oh.. hi :D" and we talked a little bit. then he went and did some shopping before work, since he was like 45 minutes early. he came to my register to check out; possibly cause it was the shortest line, not sure.
and then he clocked in at 4:45ish, i guess. not sure. he was on gm side till he went to his break, i was on grocery. i saw him come over and close his till after his break, i guess, and wondered wtf he was doing, never really found out. but as i was going home, i looked at the board where they have where everybody is written down and i didn't see his name. i was wondering where the fuck he was. so i said whatever, went and clocked out, wrote down my schedule, and was leaving, and he was door greeting on grocery. so i stood there and talked with him for like 30 minutes. told him i had to run home to get some money cause i had to do some shopping, but that i'd be back in a few. ran home, talked to mom a bit, and she asked who that cute guy i was talking to when she was leaving was. haha. that was weird.
ran back up to walmart, talked with him for another 15 or so minutes, and knowing that he went home at 10:15 told him i was gonna go run and do my shopping but that i'd probably be back by. went and got what i needed, kind of took my time, talked to some people (we were out of the conditioner i wanted. boo). then i went back out, and talked to him some; he was like "what took you so long? you got like 3 things and took like half an hour?" but he was silly; it only took me like 15 minutes at the most. so i talked with him till they sent someone to send him home, and he was like "hmmm, i need to do some shopping before i go home too; my brother's eating all my food" so i offered to shop with him, since i didn't fancy going back home. so we uh, shopped. and talked a lot. it was nice. then we were going to check out to leave, and he had to see the chick that is stalkery obsessed with him; it's funny as sin cause everybody knows she's obsessed with him, and i make fun of him for it. ^_^ and he needed to borrow my discount card, so i let him. i wonder if he'll figure out my last name the way i figured out his? or if he already figured it out somehow? meh. curiousity.
so we were leaving, and he's like "where'd ya park at?" so we went over to my car, and he's like "ohhhh, i should've figured you'd have the nice car. did you buy that from what you'd made here?" and i told him how my dad bought it, blah blah, and he said i was spoiled. bah. and we stood out there talking for freaking ever. at one point he mentioned something like "hey, can i get your number?" when i told him the thing about my mom (he also said he was gonna try and find her someday and go up to her and be like "so uh, you think i'm hot, eh?" buahhaa), and i was like "well.. do you want it? i'll give it to you :)" and gave him my number. we'll see if he calls me. :D then at like 11:40 dad called me, and i just didn't answer it, and he's like "well, my mom's probably worried as hell over me not being home, so i should get going" and yeah... i went home. happy as all get out. at 11:45, having gotten off of work at 9.
so uh, yeah.
31st, i talk to him some... tell him i still don't know if the plans for where i was going for NYE were still on, so i didn't really have much to do for NYE. so he tells me i'm going to a party with him in haven. so i'm like, "sure, okay. give me a call later and tell me how to get there." and he calls me at like 9, saying that his friend in haven who was throwing the party got his ankle shattered when he got jumped by some guys from colwich. so instead, he's gonna be hanging out at home, in andale, with his brother, cody, and his sister-in-law, kat. and that i'm welcome to join if i want to. so i, obviously, did.
started the evening with vodka and mountain dew, and we started playing circle of death. they all wanted to get me tanked as hell, since, ya know, i'm the new person. joy. and they made me drink beer, so that blew. i hate beer. and i got pretty drunk. and so did seth. i think cody and kat did as well, but i was too drunk to notice. at midnight, cody and kat kissed, and were like "hey, you two. kiss. now" and we did. although it was a bit weird and i was kind of falling (drunk say wha). go me. and then i managed to do my puking and then depressing drunk act again. whoohoo. but seth was good, and sat there with me and helped comfort me. which was so fucking great. then we went in, and kind of just sat around and talked for a while. and i washed some of my hair, cause i puked on it. ewww.
then at like 2, we all called it time for bed, and seth told me that i was sleeping in his bed, with him or without him, my call. and i totally said with him. ya know, cause it was a cold night, right? ;P we ended up making out hardcore like all night long (he's saving himself for marriage, very respectable), well, at least till 4ish. we talked about a lot of stupid random stuff in there too. early on, he said to me "so, uh... i'm kind of confused here. are we going out now, or what?" and i just said "i'd love it if we were, but i'll let you be the judge of that here." and he just kissed me and said yeah. then we both finally passed the fuck out. then we both woke up again before 6 (when the alarms were set, so i could get home), and were going at it supah hardcore, and then at like 6:30 we finally got up. and he told me that i was the first girl he was comfortable enough with to take his shirt off with. so that was pretty special, in it's own little way.
so we then got up, and sat around for a good little while, goofing off, etc. and... the greatest part of it all? i was SO goddamn comfortable with him. he's the first guy that i've been around period that i am instantly that comfortable with... and i love that. there's been this like... instant ka-pow chemistry there, the whole time. gah, it's wonderful. i can't express in words how great it is to just have seen this guy a while ago, and thought "hey, he's cute..." and then after a while get to talking to him, and think "hey, he's fun to talk with..." and then after another little while you're wrestling under the covers with him in a completely non-sexual way, and thinking "god this is amazing."
...bah, i could go on and on forever. >.>