life
wow this update page seems really different since last time, oh well
so right now i pretty much hate my life. not that today had any reason to say this. its just been really hard the last couple of weeks. the main thing is not being able to work, not that i love to work, but the need for money right now is so great. i cant seem to get any work at home, as usually (stupid kohl's), right now i havent been able to get a job up here. i guess the best i can do is keep filling up those job aps. and to make matters worse i got bills up the wasoo, is that how you spell that, i dont know, oh well. like bill for the apt., nothing super great yet but i feel bad not paying andrew right now for stuff and the other guys. then when i go home the next time i know i'll have a bill still for my charge and one for my computer, and who know what else probably. but even besides the bill, it would be great to have money just to go out with the guys like tonite when they went to La's.
on a different, yet similar note, still no gf. not that that is a terrible thing, but there are times recently where it would be nice to just have someone there to talk to or even hang out with. but you know i guess that's just the way life is. but that goes right back to the money situation, cant really have a gf when you aint got no $$$. how in the hell are you supposed to take a girl out with no money. but this comes from me being one of those guys that doesnt like the girl to pay for anything. but even if money was not involved, right now it just seem like nice guys finish last. now i feel like im my brother saying all of this depressing shit. but im tired of being rejected or anything else thats pretty much the same thing as being rejected.
why am i saying all of this? i really dont know, probably just because its super late, yet i cant seem to fall asleep. why? i dont know. why am i repeating myself....guess im an idiot. guess i should just try to go to sleep.
oh well talk to yall later.
nite
so right now i pretty much hate my life. not that today had any reason to say this. its just been really hard the last couple of weeks. the main thing is not being able to work, not that i love to work, but the need for money right now is so great. i cant seem to get any work at home, as usually (stupid kohl's), right now i havent been able to get a job up here. i guess the best i can do is keep filling up those job aps. and to make matters worse i got bills up the wasoo, is that how you spell that, i dont know, oh well. like bill for the apt., nothing super great yet but i feel bad not paying andrew right now for stuff and the other guys. then when i go home the next time i know i'll have a bill still for my charge and one for my computer, and who know what else probably. but even besides the bill, it would be great to have money just to go out with the guys like tonite when they went to La's.
on a different, yet similar note, still no gf. not that that is a terrible thing, but there are times recently where it would be nice to just have someone there to talk to or even hang out with. but you know i guess that's just the way life is. but that goes right back to the money situation, cant really have a gf when you aint got no $$$. how in the hell are you supposed to take a girl out with no money. but this comes from me being one of those guys that doesnt like the girl to pay for anything. but even if money was not involved, right now it just seem like nice guys finish last. now i feel like im my brother saying all of this depressing shit. but im tired of being rejected or anything else thats pretty much the same thing as being rejected.
why am i saying all of this? i really dont know, probably just because its super late, yet i cant seem to fall asleep. why? i dont know. why am i repeating myself....guess im an idiot. guess i should just try to go to sleep.
oh well talk to yall later.
nite