I can relate totally to what you're going through. It's odd though- tonight I went down to the Dock by myself (hey gotta be a corporate pimp yah know? PROMOTIONS that is) ... hung out by myself later @Anchor, felt really depressed. Guess sometimes that's the price of being the social creatures we are? I often RELISH my time alone, and strive to have ''time outs'' from people lest a horrible rut ensues. That's usually at home, that I prefer to be alone. Get into music, reading, surfin' the Nyet, mastrb8, etc. :)
The ''price'' I refer to is the weak, ineffective, unambitious, excessively selfish, lazy, using, mean-spirited, psychopathic, drug and/or alcohol addicted types out there who seek out us more kindred souls and pull their usual stunts. It should be a fairly predictable routine by now?
WHAT do you expect when you go out? I expect nothing, then I'm not disappointed either. Sometimes it can be delightful when the unexpected occurs, but that's very rare. I don't mean getting mugged or panhandled, but a chemistry in a room that just rubs you right.
Let these mean leeches go destroy someone else, not you. Let them play their lying, petty little 3rd-grade games with other, unsuspecting victims. Follow the principles set forth in the books!
Yes- Kelly, you have to be somewhat self-centered. Just remember the word BALANCE as key to living to it's fullest. Gawd only knows I should practice what I preach, but for a brief moment I'm stuck in a place I abhor being in ::: soon to change :)
I can relate totally to what you're going through. It's odd though- tonight I went down to the Dock by myself (hey gotta be a corporate pimp yah know? PROMOTIONS that is) ... hung out by myself later @Anchor, felt really depressed. Guess sometimes that's the price of being the social creatures we are? I often RELISH my time alone, and strive to have ''time outs'' from people lest a horrible rut ensues. That's usually at home, that I prefer to be alone. Get into music, reading, surfin' the Nyet, mastrb8, etc. :)
The ''price'' I refer to is the weak, ineffective, unambitious, excessively selfish, lazy, using, mean-spirited, psychopathic, drug and/or alcohol addicted types out there who seek out us more kindred souls and pull their usual stunts. It should be a fairly predictable routine by now?
WHAT do you expect when you go out? I expect nothing, then I'm not disappointed either. Sometimes it can be delightful when the unexpected occurs, but that's very rare. I don't mean getting mugged or panhandled, but a chemistry in a room that just rubs you right.
Let these mean leeches go destroy someone else, not you. Let them play their lying, petty little 3rd-grade games with other, unsuspecting victims. Follow the principles set forth in the books!
Yes- Kelly, you have to be somewhat self-centered. Just remember the word BALANCE as key to living to it's fullest. Gawd only knows I should practice what I preach, but for a brief moment I'm stuck in a place I abhor being in ::: soon to change :)
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