how does it feel to be on your own?
So I've had an uncontrollable feeling of lonelyness. I can't help it, the people I thought were interesting really only go skin deep. Everybody around me isnt interesting at all, they never really were when I think about it, but I just didnt mind because I didnt know any better. I wish I could explain myself better, of course people will comment sympathizing with me, but even hte people that do are full of shit. Im really really looking forward to graduating highschool, I need to go find my home. Its not here, theres no doubt in my mind its really not here. I am in two different places at once, Im sitting in a beautiful house in the suburbs but my mind is miles and miles away from all of this. Suburbia and the people who occupy it arent important. All apologies to the people reading this, Im not going to say "no offence" because of course, its very offensive to say what Im saying, but the thing is nobody reading this will think about their lifes any differently from reading some smelly stoners bullshit, right? I am having the hardest time right now dealing with the frustration of doing mindless daily chores and bores and knowing that this isnt where I want to be. At the same time I cant do anything about it for three more years. Fuck.