sorrow

[parasita_no24]

ok so yesterday i asked mike to prom hessen infromed me that he didnt think i was serious about wanting to go with him, so i came up with a creative way to ask him, I put will you go to prom with.... in fortune cookies and sent him clues as to who i was and then finally i ased him myself. he never answered me, i found out that he broke up with jen that day but when i asked him to prom he seemed soooo happy like nothing was wrong he said he'd give me my answer the way i asked him all creative like. but today he told me that he didnt know if he wanted ot go anymore that he jsut broke up with jen and that he had intended on taking her, but hessen told me that he didnt even want ot take jen, he said he really would liek to go with me but that he didnt want ot go to prom anymore, which was a basic no. so i got turned down by the one person i really and only wanted to go with i dont even feel like going anymore... i cryed my eyes out like a little baby and then i wrote him a letter... i even saw him in the hall walking back from my math class cause i was soo upset but he didnt even stop to talk to me and i wanted so much to have rather told him face to face how i felt rather then in a letter

i wrote mike a letter telling him how i really feel everything i've ever felt and how sorry i was for the past. i didnt put him down at all i didnt call him names all i did was tell him exactly how i felt even though hes made me even sadder and even more depresed i dont want him to stop talkign to me..... i feel liek i might have ruined our freindship by asking him to prom and bringing this up but i cant hold back anymore my heart aches with somethign soo profound i wish he only knew....