half dreaming
i think so much of the past.
driving to ucsd to see vicki almost every day.
staring out at the gray skies from her dorm room.
it was so cold back then.
oscar and I becoming friends and him being the first boy i ever slept in a bed with.
i can still remember feeling safe with him and excited to see him whenever we would meet.
moving to encinitas and being so excited to live with scott, jessica and tanya.
living in a little house three blocks from the beach and chain smoking on the porch in the sunlight.
everything was so fresh and new.
meeting becky, mars, ashley, tomra and my now best friend liz.
feeling like i had met the coolest people in the world and being so happy to be around them.
going to parties, meeting people, listening to music, feeling like i actually belonged.
i didn't feel like an outsider anymore.
i don't live in the past, but i am constantly looking back for bits and pieces.
i feel so nostalgic these days. i wish i hadn't taken those years for granted.
i am still so young, but those were years of my life that changed me.
i came into my own..the time seems all so magical now..everything was a new venture
whether it was the way people were dressing, the music being made or the house parties we were
frequenting.
i feel as though the people around me never occupy their time with this train of thought.
it almost feels like it all never happened.
life is so interesting, joyous and bittersweet.
i am happy to be alive. i love life. really.
goodnight
driving to ucsd to see vicki almost every day.
staring out at the gray skies from her dorm room.
it was so cold back then.
oscar and I becoming friends and him being the first boy i ever slept in a bed with.
i can still remember feeling safe with him and excited to see him whenever we would meet.
moving to encinitas and being so excited to live with scott, jessica and tanya.
living in a little house three blocks from the beach and chain smoking on the porch in the sunlight.
everything was so fresh and new.
meeting becky, mars, ashley, tomra and my now best friend liz.
feeling like i had met the coolest people in the world and being so happy to be around them.
going to parties, meeting people, listening to music, feeling like i actually belonged.
i didn't feel like an outsider anymore.
i don't live in the past, but i am constantly looking back for bits and pieces.
i feel so nostalgic these days. i wish i hadn't taken those years for granted.
i am still so young, but those were years of my life that changed me.
i came into my own..the time seems all so magical now..everything was a new venture
whether it was the way people were dressing, the music being made or the house parties we were
frequenting.
i feel as though the people around me never occupy their time with this train of thought.
it almost feels like it all never happened.
life is so interesting, joyous and bittersweet.
i am happy to be alive. i love life. really.
goodnight