What's the point?
I was getting ready for school today... starightening the crap outta my hair, putting on my makeup, all that wonderful shit when I just stopped and wondered, 'why?' Who/What the hell am I getting ready for? A school where they don't like me with guys that don't even give a shit about me?
This is hopeless. I can't do it anymore. I feel like I keep running and running and just when I think I get somewhere I run into a wall head first.
I always feel empty now. I've felt lonely for awhile but I really really feel it now. You see, I went from this small "bubble" grammar school to the big world of high school. Meanwhile, all my friends went to another school and they're doing just grrrreeeeaaaat.
I know I'm drowning in self-pity and all that bullshit, but if you were in my position you'd understand.
So anyway, it's a crappy cold almost-December day and I'm walking to the busstop. And then I froze. My mind and body were actually in sync and both knew I couldn't handel today. I glanced around me to see if any of the people that are at my bustop where there or watching and I turned left and ran away.
I can't handel it anymore.
This is hopeless. I can't do it anymore. I feel like I keep running and running and just when I think I get somewhere I run into a wall head first.
I always feel empty now. I've felt lonely for awhile but I really really feel it now. You see, I went from this small "bubble" grammar school to the big world of high school. Meanwhile, all my friends went to another school and they're doing just grrrreeeeaaaat.
I know I'm drowning in self-pity and all that bullshit, but if you were in my position you'd understand.
So anyway, it's a crappy cold almost-December day and I'm walking to the busstop. And then I froze. My mind and body were actually in sync and both knew I couldn't handel today. I glanced around me to see if any of the people that are at my bustop where there or watching and I turned left and ran away.
I can't handel it anymore.