a state of sadness

[paranoidjaymee]

i need u here w/ me ive had such i fuking frusterrating day, i no that u need me to and if i was there i would hold in my arms and never let u go, and tell how much i want to thank u for making my journal pretty i give u lots of love for that. Well today was normal went to skool came home talked to my nathan did some boring shit and came to tracys. everything was going ok when mckina started to cry that she miss her momy grrrrrr right then i need another cigerette. of course she got to stay alomost an hour past her bed time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but she miss her mom and i understand she is a really sweet gurl and i love her and her mom to death. Well i do have a bit of good news that i have found out since my last up date, i get to go see my anna and my nathan in less thyan two weeks. once again wednesday night i made my baby go agaianst his moral and had him buy one of my friends a pack of cigerrettes. speaking of cigerrettes im going to go have one and when i get back im going to do something speacial for my nathan.

ok i no long ass entrie

i miss u