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So I totally flipped my shit on my mother last night. And I'm not sure if I feel guilty or not.
See, there's always these little comments from her. "You have a very nice house. It's a shame you don't clean it like you should." "You dressed nice today. Are you ever going to do something with your hair?"
And I'll say to her, hey, that hurt my feelings and she pulls the, what? I complimented you. I told you how much I liked your house.
So last night I'm at dinner with her and my SIL and I think we're having a nice meal and chat, nothing groundbreaking, but social, and later in the parking lot, my mom says to me, "now you can talk, but you can't say a word at dinner?" Which is not an incendiary comment, but it broke my straw.
So I told her to fuck off and I left.
This was a bad reaction on my part. I was childish. We've talked many times in therapy that I can't control over people's behavior, but I can control my reaction. And I didn't. So I will apologize for being inappropriate in my reaction.
But it did feel a little good.
See, there's always these little comments from her. "You have a very nice house. It's a shame you don't clean it like you should." "You dressed nice today. Are you ever going to do something with your hair?"
And I'll say to her, hey, that hurt my feelings and she pulls the, what? I complimented you. I told you how much I liked your house.
So last night I'm at dinner with her and my SIL and I think we're having a nice meal and chat, nothing groundbreaking, but social, and later in the parking lot, my mom says to me, "now you can talk, but you can't say a word at dinner?" Which is not an incendiary comment, but it broke my straw.
So I told her to fuck off and I left.
This was a bad reaction on my part. I was childish. We've talked many times in therapy that I can't control over people's behavior, but I can control my reaction. And I didn't. So I will apologize for being inappropriate in my reaction.
But it did feel a little good.