my brain
is shit
i got totally overwhelmed wiht my first batch of shitty cupcakes .. And i mean im a good cook and a pretty good baker.. I am use to never doing recipes.. i make them up myself and my stuff is always better i find the recipes.. I like being creative with cooking. But i have to make these 40 cupcakes for the wedding for my friend.. I really wish i never said i would
i just did not understand the stupid instructions
not straight forward asking u to do three things at once.. i need specific instructions.. these were not
so the lame arse i am started crying
I think my brain is really dumb
I remember being young and sometimes trying to do home work. and so much of the time i never really understood what they wanted me to do.. so many times i was always wrong and did a comletely wrong project.. like i never understood when i was young about this primary and secondary industry thing of countries.. i fucked up my project so much and all they said was this is not what we asked.. i remember being older at highschool and just not understanding what they wanted from me.. some kind of map or something i wasnt sure.. i remember feeling so stupid and just crying.. I have this brain that does not understand things.. i get overwhelmed and need to cry or freak out.. sometimes i will understand later when i calm down.. This is why when i explain things to ppl i am very literal.. because i know its easy to understand things better when u r very specific and go into detail but keep things simple.. that is why i was a good trainer and a good teacher with kids.. for karate and nature stuff
but i ask.. why is my brain so dumb.. is it the chemicals.. am i retarded.. or is it the depression clouds me.. it cant always be the depression cause i had this all my life.. I think i learn a diff way.. i think i could have a learning disorder.. all the words jumble into a blob.. its why ihave trouble reading graphs ..
fuck im stupid
i really dont understand myself
I was so very independent
i want a new brain
I hate myself for being so shitting dumb
i got totally overwhelmed wiht my first batch of shitty cupcakes .. And i mean im a good cook and a pretty good baker.. I am use to never doing recipes.. i make them up myself and my stuff is always better i find the recipes.. I like being creative with cooking. But i have to make these 40 cupcakes for the wedding for my friend.. I really wish i never said i would
i just did not understand the stupid instructions
not straight forward asking u to do three things at once.. i need specific instructions.. these were not
so the lame arse i am started crying
I think my brain is really dumb
I remember being young and sometimes trying to do home work. and so much of the time i never really understood what they wanted me to do.. so many times i was always wrong and did a comletely wrong project.. like i never understood when i was young about this primary and secondary industry thing of countries.. i fucked up my project so much and all they said was this is not what we asked.. i remember being older at highschool and just not understanding what they wanted from me.. some kind of map or something i wasnt sure.. i remember feeling so stupid and just crying.. I have this brain that does not understand things.. i get overwhelmed and need to cry or freak out.. sometimes i will understand later when i calm down.. This is why when i explain things to ppl i am very literal.. because i know its easy to understand things better when u r very specific and go into detail but keep things simple.. that is why i was a good trainer and a good teacher with kids.. for karate and nature stuff
but i ask.. why is my brain so dumb.. is it the chemicals.. am i retarded.. or is it the depression clouds me.. it cant always be the depression cause i had this all my life.. I think i learn a diff way.. i think i could have a learning disorder.. all the words jumble into a blob.. its why ihave trouble reading graphs ..
fuck im stupid
i really dont understand myself
I was so very independent
i want a new brain
I hate myself for being so shitting dumb