Bring on the dark days. The reaching of branches & the skitter of leaves.
Ladies and Gentlemen, we are moving into the home stretch.
There are questions we have yet to ask in these few weeks left, concerns needing attention.
...questions like:
Can you trump the all-knowing, all-seeing GPA?
Have you got the endurance to stay one step ahead of the talons?
How much sleep will you sacrifice for the cause of The Rest of Your Life??
Paralyzing. Which is why we will not focus on those; cross that bridge when it collapses. Let's look at what happened to me on Friday:
something like a breakdown.
A lot of things circling the drain went under finally.
Wikipedia doesn't know what happened...This was no panic attack; obviously not a breakdown, but neither was it anything close to the experiences I hear my friends talk about when they describe a mental ...experience, is the word to use. The tone was very different, a little like dying and meeting myself in the same sitting, some kind of phoenix-type ...rebirth, if I'm not being too dramatic.
This is largely personal, but Livejournal is where I expect to find people who can relate to this kind of thing. No offense.
A little long-winded by now.
All I know for sure is that I had one of the most profound and personal experiences of my life. Closer than acid, closer than Bonnaroo's demented mushroom-attack, and much more meaningful. it was the kind that people are supposed to have: as though up until that point I was asleep under a knotted, running hose that suddenly straightened out. Very, very sudden, powerful, blindingly fast inventory of Everything at once with all the lasting power and residue of months of introspection and study. It lasted somewhere close to 40 minutes total. and I can't underline any further how significant I think this was.
to simplify, I feel much ..cleaner now. More 'less', in a strong way.
Time I stopped writing. Tonight's adderall is tapering off.
Lots of work is finished & more needs doing...
Tomorrow.
Goodnight to you
There are questions we have yet to ask in these few weeks left, concerns needing attention.
...questions like:
Can you trump the all-knowing, all-seeing GPA?
Have you got the endurance to stay one step ahead of the talons?
How much sleep will you sacrifice for the cause of The Rest of Your Life??
Paralyzing. Which is why we will not focus on those; cross that bridge when it collapses. Let's look at what happened to me on Friday:
something like a breakdown.
A lot of things circling the drain went under finally.
Wikipedia doesn't know what happened...This was no panic attack; obviously not a breakdown, but neither was it anything close to the experiences I hear my friends talk about when they describe a mental ...experience, is the word to use. The tone was very different, a little like dying and meeting myself in the same sitting, some kind of phoenix-type ...rebirth, if I'm not being too dramatic.
This is largely personal, but Livejournal is where I expect to find people who can relate to this kind of thing. No offense.
A little long-winded by now.
All I know for sure is that I had one of the most profound and personal experiences of my life. Closer than acid, closer than Bonnaroo's demented mushroom-attack, and much more meaningful. it was the kind that people are supposed to have: as though up until that point I was asleep under a knotted, running hose that suddenly straightened out. Very, very sudden, powerful, blindingly fast inventory of Everything at once with all the lasting power and residue of months of introspection and study. It lasted somewhere close to 40 minutes total. and I can't underline any further how significant I think this was.
to simplify, I feel much ..cleaner now. More 'less', in a strong way.
Time I stopped writing. Tonight's adderall is tapering off.
Lots of work is finished & more needs doing...
Tomorrow.
Goodnight to you