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Assesment:
*GOOD:
-playing guitar more frequently
-have job
-drinking lots of water
-plenty of video games for escapism
-still learning more everyday about people, me, and the stuff inbetween
-Fall Semester at WCC lined up & almost completely taken-care of
-friends from Guilford still show interest in contacting me, at least on the surface
-tighter with family
-have more time in the day
-getting better at work
-friends are around
*BAD:
-not practicing for guitar lessons
-not sleeping enough
-general poor health
-back under parents' control
-have forgotten how to lie properly
-addictions still take the reigns
-"Good Friends" have grown scarce
-numerous relationships in need of work
-not waking up for job early enough (rhymes with "ulgh")
-feel depression slipping over everything
-shaky, uncertain vibe at home. (think veitcong)
-clinginess to certain people, but simultaneous preference for being totally left alone.
-habit of liking people who are not good for my state of mind
-haven't been writing/reading much/at all
*In no order of importance due to lack of thinking energy
The way it works is, I write something, some of you read it (?), I go into a phase of silence & introspection and then resurface with "the data I've gathered..."
Which right now seems like inventive, annoying, bullshit.
Fuck man.
I don't know what I need most right now. Some balance would be nice. maybe some consistency. even most aspects of my job are uncertain.
and all I can really do is complain.
this entry is about to get really sour.
I'm cutting this off early or I'll be freaked out all day.
*GOOD:
-playing guitar more frequently
-have job
-drinking lots of water
-plenty of video games for escapism
-still learning more everyday about people, me, and the stuff inbetween
-Fall Semester at WCC lined up & almost completely taken-care of
-friends from Guilford still show interest in contacting me, at least on the surface
-tighter with family
-have more time in the day
-getting better at work
-friends are around
*BAD:
-not practicing for guitar lessons
-not sleeping enough
-general poor health
-back under parents' control
-have forgotten how to lie properly
-addictions still take the reigns
-"Good Friends" have grown scarce
-numerous relationships in need of work
-not waking up for job early enough (rhymes with "ulgh")
-feel depression slipping over everything
-shaky, uncertain vibe at home. (think veitcong)
-clinginess to certain people, but simultaneous preference for being totally left alone.
-habit of liking people who are not good for my state of mind
-haven't been writing/reading much/at all
*In no order of importance due to lack of thinking energy
The way it works is, I write something, some of you read it (?), I go into a phase of silence & introspection and then resurface with "the data I've gathered..."
Which right now seems like inventive, annoying, bullshit.
Fuck man.
I don't know what I need most right now. Some balance would be nice. maybe some consistency. even most aspects of my job are uncertain.
and all I can really do is complain.
this entry is about to get really sour.
I'm cutting this off early or I'll be freaked out all day.