Only I - Oneshot - Taemin x Jonghyun
Title: Only I
Chapters: Oneshot
Author: paranoiascreams
Genre: angst
Warning: Un-Beta'd, narrative - driven
Rating: PG
Pairings/Characters: Taemin x Jonghyun (onesided), Minho x Jonghyun
Synopsis: This isnt the first time I comforted you, but it is the first time i summoned all the courage i have to ask the question that kept bugging me, "Why do you stay with him even if you fight everytime? How can you still be in love with him?"
Disclaimer: I will own them soon never.
Comments: cant help throwing my OTP in this. XD
I dont know how Onew - hyung and Key - hyung do it but I can never pretend to be blind, never pretend to not see the both of you arguing over and over again, and even behind closed doors, even just from hearing the muffled sounds of your arguments, i can see clearly how you two would look like inside your shared bedroom. I would usually be by the living room, a few steps away from where you two would be when heated confrontations are about to ensue while Key-hyung stays in the kitchen and cook, with Onew-hyung helping him. They always told me never to interfere with you and him, as I was the youngest and I would never understand, so they give me a music player (that i dont turn on anyway) while I study in the living room.
But I understand. How can't I when it's me who'll walk inside the room when Minho-hyung would walk out for some fresh air when these arguments last longer than half an hour? It will be me who'd just wrap my hands around you when I walk inside the room to find you crying. It will be me who'll tell you that "It's gonna be alright, Jonghyun-hyung...He's just stressed out."
And you will cry some more, hugging me back, never mind the tears that are wetting my shirt, if it means you letting out the emotions. I will pat your back and i will crack some jokes, and your sobs will turn into soft fits of giggles with some sniffling on the side, you will face me with eyes still laden with tears, and I make sure to make funny faces, and you will smile, and slowly, the pain you felt will be fading slowly. When all your tears dry up and just leaves dirt trails on your cheek, you say, "Thank you Taemin, no one can ask for a better dongsaeng. You're the best one ever... Me and Minho will be okay." You will nod and give me a smile, an assurance to me that you are again willing to work it out with Minho-hyung.
This isnt the first time I comforted you, but it is the first time i summoned all the courage i have to ask the question that kept bugging me, "Why do you stay with him even if you fight everytime? How can you still be in love with him?"
You ruffled my hair, lips smiling but the pain in your eyes cannot be denied; so is the love in them, "Because Taemin, I just do. Love is a feeling that's too hard to explain and understand. You're too young to know... I stay with him because my world will crumble to pieces without him..."
I said nothing, but i looked at you, your eyes darting to the door that just opened, with Minho-hyung rushing to you, completely locking you in his arms, apologizing over and over about what transpired minutes ago, and I hear you forgive him, sharing I love you's, you will look at me and mouth the words, "See? We'll be ok..." and you will kiss Minho-hyung's head, it's my time to walk away from the room and head to my own, locking the door behind me.
Here, by the dimly lit room, making sure i turn the radio on with the volume raised so high to a dance song, i stand by my mirror, hoping the song will mask my cries. I whisper the same joke that made you laugh, but i didnt burst out in laughter, I even did the funny face to make you smile but all it did was just make me hurt more and my cries will just grow louder.
They say I will never understand love but I do.
Love can make you see what others failed to do so. It was only I that saw the pain in your eyes even if you smile after every argument, it was only I who can make you smile when you're breaking in tears, only I saw you hold on over and over again when it's clearly time to let go.
I stared at the mirror again, wiping the tears that wont stop falling, i tell myself, "It's only me who's in love with you since it's clear that you've given your heart completely to him; only I need to see and feel this pain..."
You chose this Taemin, you chose to be in love, and you chose to let your love die in vain.
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Author's Notes: Angsty much? I think I sucked. I hope I was able to get the message across to you guys. ^_^
comments are love!
Chapters: Oneshot
Author: paranoiascreams
Genre: angst
Warning: Un-Beta'd, narrative - driven
Rating: PG
Pairings/Characters: Taemin x Jonghyun (onesided), Minho x Jonghyun
Synopsis: This isnt the first time I comforted you, but it is the first time i summoned all the courage i have to ask the question that kept bugging me, "Why do you stay with him even if you fight everytime? How can you still be in love with him?"
Disclaimer: I will own them soon never.
Comments: cant help throwing my OTP in this. XD
I dont know how Onew - hyung and Key - hyung do it but I can never pretend to be blind, never pretend to not see the both of you arguing over and over again, and even behind closed doors, even just from hearing the muffled sounds of your arguments, i can see clearly how you two would look like inside your shared bedroom. I would usually be by the living room, a few steps away from where you two would be when heated confrontations are about to ensue while Key-hyung stays in the kitchen and cook, with Onew-hyung helping him. They always told me never to interfere with you and him, as I was the youngest and I would never understand, so they give me a music player (that i dont turn on anyway) while I study in the living room.
But I understand. How can't I when it's me who'll walk inside the room when Minho-hyung would walk out for some fresh air when these arguments last longer than half an hour? It will be me who'd just wrap my hands around you when I walk inside the room to find you crying. It will be me who'll tell you that "It's gonna be alright, Jonghyun-hyung...He's just stressed out."
And you will cry some more, hugging me back, never mind the tears that are wetting my shirt, if it means you letting out the emotions. I will pat your back and i will crack some jokes, and your sobs will turn into soft fits of giggles with some sniffling on the side, you will face me with eyes still laden with tears, and I make sure to make funny faces, and you will smile, and slowly, the pain you felt will be fading slowly. When all your tears dry up and just leaves dirt trails on your cheek, you say, "Thank you Taemin, no one can ask for a better dongsaeng. You're the best one ever... Me and Minho will be okay." You will nod and give me a smile, an assurance to me that you are again willing to work it out with Minho-hyung.
This isnt the first time I comforted you, but it is the first time i summoned all the courage i have to ask the question that kept bugging me, "Why do you stay with him even if you fight everytime? How can you still be in love with him?"
You ruffled my hair, lips smiling but the pain in your eyes cannot be denied; so is the love in them, "Because Taemin, I just do. Love is a feeling that's too hard to explain and understand. You're too young to know... I stay with him because my world will crumble to pieces without him..."
I said nothing, but i looked at you, your eyes darting to the door that just opened, with Minho-hyung rushing to you, completely locking you in his arms, apologizing over and over about what transpired minutes ago, and I hear you forgive him, sharing I love you's, you will look at me and mouth the words, "See? We'll be ok..." and you will kiss Minho-hyung's head, it's my time to walk away from the room and head to my own, locking the door behind me.
Here, by the dimly lit room, making sure i turn the radio on with the volume raised so high to a dance song, i stand by my mirror, hoping the song will mask my cries. I whisper the same joke that made you laugh, but i didnt burst out in laughter, I even did the funny face to make you smile but all it did was just make me hurt more and my cries will just grow louder.
They say I will never understand love but I do.
Love can make you see what others failed to do so. It was only I that saw the pain in your eyes even if you smile after every argument, it was only I who can make you smile when you're breaking in tears, only I saw you hold on over and over again when it's clearly time to let go.
I stared at the mirror again, wiping the tears that wont stop falling, i tell myself, "It's only me who's in love with you since it's clear that you've given your heart completely to him; only I need to see and feel this pain..."
You chose this Taemin, you chose to be in love, and you chose to let your love die in vain.
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Author's Notes: Angsty much? I think I sucked. I hope I was able to get the message across to you guys. ^_^
comments are love!