Melody Line - Tora x Saga - Oneshot
Title: Melody Line
Chapters: Oneshot
Author: paranoiascreams
Genre: romance, drama, angst
Warning: Un-Beta'd
Rating: PG - 13
Pairings/Characters: Tora x Saga
Synopsis: I pondered on the things that could have escalated for you to break up with me. I always believed it was me who did wrong. I am too in love with you to accept that you are capable of loving someone else.
Disclaimer: story, mine. alice nine, not yet.never.
Comments: Was deeply inspired by the song Broken Strings by James Morrison ft. Nelly Furtado. The song is beautiful yet bittersweet.
"It's over."
The words play over and over my head when you said those words one windy afternoon, with kids laughing and playing in the park where we were resting, I know there was something in your mind that day, i just never thought what you said will make my ears deaf, the laughter of the children suddenly faded and all i could hear were your footsteps walking away from me, and the sobbing from myself.
I smirked at the thought. It's been two months since we've broken up but you still have this power over me. With just one look, one smile, one call and im back to the person you suddenly approached in the very same park where you broke my heart.
I looked beside me, there you are.
Dark hair on your forehead, sleeping soundly, your face buried on your pillow, i can even hear you snoring even if it was almost just a soft whisper in the air.
Your naked flesh glowing into the night. I always loved how pale you look against me. It makes me look more human. And you hated it when i joke about it, you said i make you feel like an alien. Or a ghost.
But I was the ghost. And it's true that it's you who made me feel human. Being with you is the only time i can feel anything. Happiness. Sadness. Pain. Now mostly just pain. The happiness has gone. The sadness is over.
I lay on my side and there's a small distance between us now. I used to cuddle with you after we make love, you used to kiss me on my forehead and whisper sweet nothings in my ear, and i giggle everytime i find it too cheesy for you. But now... now you just lie on your side of the bed and just go to sleep after we have sex.
I pondered on the things that could have escalated for you to break up with me. I always believed it was me who did wrong. I am too in love with you to accept that you are capable of loving someone else. I believed that if I love you too much it will overflow and you'll catch it, so that way you wont run out of love for me. I was wrong. Even if you told me over and over that it wasnt my fault i still say it was, and i want to make up with you, in whatever way i can.
And this is it.
When you're horny and you need release, with just one call, id be there. I know it's wrong yet it feels so right. At least for me. I want to believe that it's only me who deserves to be in your bed. Only me who deserves to call your name in the heat of the moment.
"Saga?"
"...Tora?"
"You have to leave before morning, he'll be here by then."
"Yes. Go back to sleep, i'll just show myself out."
"Alright."
You grunted and went back to sleep.
And finally, the lump on my throat has escaped. I covered my mouth so the sound of my pain wont be heard. I just stayed here. Silently crying beside you. No more of your arms around me to calm me down, no more words from your lips to tell me it's ok.
I stood up, put on my clothes, im still crying but I cant help it, i tried hard not to let you hear it, i walked to the side of your bed, placed the blanket on you so you wont get cold, and gave your head a soft touch. I just had that urge to touch you, to feel you.
I stared at you for a while and headed to the door.
I've held on to you so much that it hurts.
"It's over." I whispered.
Maybe this time I wont look back. Maybe I can say no when you call. Maybe I can forget everything. Maybe.
Just maybe.
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I got affected again. There's something about this fic that somehow reminds me of how i was. Not in the same level as Saga's but, somehow.
Comments are love. ^_^
Chapters: Oneshot
Author: paranoiascreams
Genre: romance, drama, angst
Warning: Un-Beta'd
Rating: PG - 13
Pairings/Characters: Tora x Saga
Synopsis: I pondered on the things that could have escalated for you to break up with me. I always believed it was me who did wrong. I am too in love with you to accept that you are capable of loving someone else.
Disclaimer: story, mine. alice nine, not yet.never.
Comments: Was deeply inspired by the song Broken Strings by James Morrison ft. Nelly Furtado. The song is beautiful yet bittersweet.
"It's over."
The words play over and over my head when you said those words one windy afternoon, with kids laughing and playing in the park where we were resting, I know there was something in your mind that day, i just never thought what you said will make my ears deaf, the laughter of the children suddenly faded and all i could hear were your footsteps walking away from me, and the sobbing from myself.
I smirked at the thought. It's been two months since we've broken up but you still have this power over me. With just one look, one smile, one call and im back to the person you suddenly approached in the very same park where you broke my heart.
I looked beside me, there you are.
Dark hair on your forehead, sleeping soundly, your face buried on your pillow, i can even hear you snoring even if it was almost just a soft whisper in the air.
Your naked flesh glowing into the night. I always loved how pale you look against me. It makes me look more human. And you hated it when i joke about it, you said i make you feel like an alien. Or a ghost.
But I was the ghost. And it's true that it's you who made me feel human. Being with you is the only time i can feel anything. Happiness. Sadness. Pain. Now mostly just pain. The happiness has gone. The sadness is over.
I lay on my side and there's a small distance between us now. I used to cuddle with you after we make love, you used to kiss me on my forehead and whisper sweet nothings in my ear, and i giggle everytime i find it too cheesy for you. But now... now you just lie on your side of the bed and just go to sleep after we have sex.
I pondered on the things that could have escalated for you to break up with me. I always believed it was me who did wrong. I am too in love with you to accept that you are capable of loving someone else. I believed that if I love you too much it will overflow and you'll catch it, so that way you wont run out of love for me. I was wrong. Even if you told me over and over that it wasnt my fault i still say it was, and i want to make up with you, in whatever way i can.
And this is it.
When you're horny and you need release, with just one call, id be there. I know it's wrong yet it feels so right. At least for me. I want to believe that it's only me who deserves to be in your bed. Only me who deserves to call your name in the heat of the moment.
"Saga?"
"...Tora?"
"You have to leave before morning, he'll be here by then."
"Yes. Go back to sleep, i'll just show myself out."
"Alright."
You grunted and went back to sleep.
And finally, the lump on my throat has escaped. I covered my mouth so the sound of my pain wont be heard. I just stayed here. Silently crying beside you. No more of your arms around me to calm me down, no more words from your lips to tell me it's ok.
I stood up, put on my clothes, im still crying but I cant help it, i tried hard not to let you hear it, i walked to the side of your bed, placed the blanket on you so you wont get cold, and gave your head a soft touch. I just had that urge to touch you, to feel you.
I stared at you for a while and headed to the door.
I've held on to you so much that it hurts.
"It's over." I whispered.
Maybe this time I wont look back. Maybe I can say no when you call. Maybe I can forget everything. Maybe.
Just maybe.
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I got affected again. There's something about this fic that somehow reminds me of how i was. Not in the same level as Saga's but, somehow.
Comments are love. ^_^