Reasons to be happyful

[paralyliz]

 Since my last entry turned into a discussion about a lot of the things wrong in my life, I have decided to compile a list of everything that makes me Happy! Mostly for future reference, when I'm feeling down, or lonely, or like the whole world is against me. 'Cause yes, I'm an angsty teenager. But so much happens in life, I believe that everyone has the right to angst now and again. So here is my happy list (in no particular order)

• My gorgeous little brothers. I might complain about how annoying they are at times, but I still love them unconditionally. And everyday, I'm grateful that they're still there to annoy me, and generally wreck havoc. Because, after all, they're only little boys :)
• My best friend, Elizabeth. She helps me out through everything. And I love her so much, because of it. She's my completely-non-evil cloney. Hang on... Does that make me the evil one? Eepers.
• My best friends who I moved away from four years ago. Particularly Becky, Sarah and Emma. They're all amazing, and Emma is awesome at 3am when I can't sleep and I need to talk to someone.
• Hannah. She's a youth worker, and I love her dearly. She helped me through a difficult patch recently, something I don't want to share with the rest of the world. Let's just say that, thanks to her (and the person who I'll mention in the next point), I managed to sort something scary and upsetting out. It would've stayed bottled up otherwise, and I'd be even more of a wreck than I am normally
• Frantastic! Fran is extremely fantastic, and along with Hannah, is a youth worker. Between them, they helped me tell my mam what was going on, and encouraged me through telling other people what'd happened. Fran also helped me realise just how loved I am, because, although she is normally a pacifist, she was all ready to hurt someone when she found out what had happened to me. Made me feel very, very loved.
• I am also made happy by the existence of neopets, and TNO. The guys across there are some of the most awesome people I've ever met, and every day I am happy that I can log onto my computer and spend time chatting to people across the globe.
• Music makes me happy, also. All sorts of music, from hip-hop to heavy metal, from every decade from the 60s to the current day, and also a bit of classical thrown in for good measure.
• Oddly enough, economics also makes me happy. I suppose, when my head is full of theories and diagrams, there's not much time to thing of anything else. Particularly since my economics teacher is so unpredictable, so I always have to be ready to answer any question he might throw my way. Economics is great for taking my mind off things ^^
• My laptop is love. Full stop.

I am happy and grateful for lots of other things. I'm amazed, now, looking back at it, how much I have to be happy about in my life. Sometimes, though, the bad overshadows the good, and you can't think of anything else but the bad. Happiness is an emotion I need to feel more of. The other day at youth group, Hannah got amazingly happy because I was just randomly dancing with another couple of girls, and so much that's happened to me this year has been sad, she had to go say to some of her colleagues something like "Elizabeth's having fun! I'm so happy!" Making other people happy makes me happy. Just like making other people cry makes me cry harder. I'm quite emotional, and I'll often pick up on people's moods. It stems back to when I was younger; when it was just me and my mam, and she was battling her alcoholism. I'd always have to guage her mood, and it's something I'm still fairly good at doing now. Oh, gosh, I've gone off on one of my tangents where it could lead to me getting depressed again. Think happy thoughts. Happy thoughts. Happy thoughts, and all will be good. Hopefully, this list will allow me to take a step back from myself when all I want to do is cry my heart out.