chewing pen caps, writing, and trying to be meaningful
This is a short collection of poems that I have written as of late. A mixture of thoughts also.
No matter how much I want to save you
I just sit here and watch you fall
wishing you were invincible
but when your skull cracks open,
your smile still remains
haunted... how enchanting it is
watching your life escape you
and as you breathe for your final time,
I tell you how much you have meant to me
but nothing, nothing will ever make you come back
you were always so unwilling
I never knew that your death
would finally just push you...
and that you spoke so much without any words at all.
All the time I feel obligated
lived my life with things I've hated
I just want to throw it all away,
be without it all
to see how happy I could be someday
and as I look to the sky,
the stars align
I feel rather insecure but somehow
there is a time to evolve
because is it fate, or is everything timed...
all in all we can never rewind
if I could disconnect, I would
but I cannot depart from anything
isolation seems to be the breeding ground for depression
within all the hurt and pain,
in quietness I remain
with wounds and scars, I have been marred
I can never get out unscathed
too much honesty and complication
I don't want to emulate others
and now I hold this gun to my head
the coldness at sudden touch, reminding me of...
getting a sudden rush
pull, pull the trigger
Jet black romance under the bright sky
respecting ourselves and the beauty of it all
with every embrace shows the passion that they share
yet living in a bittersweet world
old habits die hard
and they let each other go
can't be prepared for fate
I mean, you never saw this love coming