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So I had a dream last night. First lengthy one in a couple months. It really disturbed me, though.
Most of you know who Brooke is, aka MeowMixForVampires on YSRMB. Lisa and Brooke met eachother about 6 years ago in school, and have been great friends since(even though they live in separate states, now). Lisa is a figure skater as you know, while Brooke is not.
None the less, I dreamt that Brooke was in one of the same skating competitions as Lisa. Brooke really wanted to win this one, so she pushed herself very hard. It makes sense, because Brooke has been depressed about herself alot, lately. Anyways, she puts on this great performance, really wowing everyone. She skated like an Olympic medalist, and was extremely energetic.
After her program is done(hers was the last), it's announced that she won. Lisa was a little disappointed at herself, but more happy for her friend. 20 minutes later, we find out Brooke dies of a heart attack. Apparently, she had practiced for hours before the competition, and quite hard. She pushed herself more than she should have, and her heart gave out...even though she's young and healthy.
I felt like the world had pulled the rug out from under me, and Lisa felt worse. This was BROOKE, damn it. I haven't known her as long as Lisa, but we've still been good friends for almost a year. Brooke is very close to me.
Anyhoot, I woke up, and still thought the dream was real, for a few minutes. Then I of course remembered Brooke doesn't skate, the dream wasn't real, and that she's alive and well.
But this recent trend in my dreams is unnerving. The last big dream I had was of my little sister, Cris(Riku-chan) dying. Even though it's only been two, I don't dream often, and I'm sick of dreaming about losing people I love. In dreams, I can't stop them from dying. Where in real life, most of the people I love would probably be at risk of death from being depressed/suicidal. That's something I definitely can and have done something about.
Next thing you know, my dreams will consist of the deaths of Kate, Sam, Katrina, Amber, Paige or even Lisa-just to name a few whose losses I'd be devastated at.
Sorry if this sounds whiny or pity seeking. But I hate waking up with that pit in my stomach, even for a few minutes. It's agonizing, and cuts deeper into my heart than anything.
Most of you know who Brooke is, aka MeowMixForVampires on YSRMB. Lisa and Brooke met eachother about 6 years ago in school, and have been great friends since(even though they live in separate states, now). Lisa is a figure skater as you know, while Brooke is not.
None the less, I dreamt that Brooke was in one of the same skating competitions as Lisa. Brooke really wanted to win this one, so she pushed herself very hard. It makes sense, because Brooke has been depressed about herself alot, lately. Anyways, she puts on this great performance, really wowing everyone. She skated like an Olympic medalist, and was extremely energetic.
After her program is done(hers was the last), it's announced that she won. Lisa was a little disappointed at herself, but more happy for her friend. 20 minutes later, we find out Brooke dies of a heart attack. Apparently, she had practiced for hours before the competition, and quite hard. She pushed herself more than she should have, and her heart gave out...even though she's young and healthy.
I felt like the world had pulled the rug out from under me, and Lisa felt worse. This was BROOKE, damn it. I haven't known her as long as Lisa, but we've still been good friends for almost a year. Brooke is very close to me.
Anyhoot, I woke up, and still thought the dream was real, for a few minutes. Then I of course remembered Brooke doesn't skate, the dream wasn't real, and that she's alive and well.
But this recent trend in my dreams is unnerving. The last big dream I had was of my little sister, Cris(Riku-chan) dying. Even though it's only been two, I don't dream often, and I'm sick of dreaming about losing people I love. In dreams, I can't stop them from dying. Where in real life, most of the people I love would probably be at risk of death from being depressed/suicidal. That's something I definitely can and have done something about.
Next thing you know, my dreams will consist of the deaths of Kate, Sam, Katrina, Amber, Paige or even Lisa-just to name a few whose losses I'd be devastated at.
Sorry if this sounds whiny or pity seeking. But I hate waking up with that pit in my stomach, even for a few minutes. It's agonizing, and cuts deeper into my heart than anything.