To be loved, not because of what you ca offer...
SOMEONE ONCE WROTE:
"It’s easy to be loved when they want you, when they’re craving what you, as a girlfriend, a lover, can give them; but to be loved when you have nothing to offer….
For that second you are important and treasured. Your existence is validated.
It’s an incredible feeling, being loved. Even if it’s only for a moment."
AND this is something i cannot agree with more
So beautifully written.....
THIS is something i've wanted to put into words for a long time.
THIS is the reason why what my friend, Nate, did, helping me move Without any repayment, without Wanting something in return, meant so much to me.
THIS is what i want to feel from someone before i can truly love them.
THIS. is what i feel from Ardin.
Yes, im going to use names now... some are real, others are not =P XD
I don’t understand how anyone can be so angry all the time.
And half the time, at nothing.
I waNt to cry, but I cant cry long enough
and what I do cry, is not enough.
In fact, I don’t even know if it would help if I COULD cry enough.
I just want to tear myself apart. I want to rip out the dark coil within me. I don’t know what this coil is, but its there. And it’s suffocating me.
I don’t know what’s causing me to feel this way. I don’t know why i’m here again. I cat get my mind to function. I cant get my mind to focus. I cant associate with people. I cat communicate. I cant write, i cant laugh with sincerity.
Im just so tired. Constantly. And i’m feeling it all the time.
What is this? I don’t understand. Is this the loneliness that i was confronted with when i lost timothy? Why is it here again? I don’t miss him. Yes, i still hate him, but do i ahte him ebcause im angry at everything, or do i hate him ebcause of my past?
Sometimes, i feel so trapped in the moment, held back by my past, and supressed by my future. Im so afraid, so afraid of everything. And i don’t want to be. Over and over i fight it. And everytime, it still comes back.
I just wish I could stop being scared.
"It’s easy to be loved when they want you, when they’re craving what you, as a girlfriend, a lover, can give them; but to be loved when you have nothing to offer….
For that second you are important and treasured. Your existence is validated.
It’s an incredible feeling, being loved. Even if it’s only for a moment."
AND this is something i cannot agree with more
So beautifully written.....
THIS is something i've wanted to put into words for a long time.
THIS is the reason why what my friend, Nate, did, helping me move Without any repayment, without Wanting something in return, meant so much to me.
THIS is what i want to feel from someone before i can truly love them.
THIS. is what i feel from Ardin.
Yes, im going to use names now... some are real, others are not =P XD
I don’t understand how anyone can be so angry all the time.
And half the time, at nothing.
I waNt to cry, but I cant cry long enough
and what I do cry, is not enough.
In fact, I don’t even know if it would help if I COULD cry enough.
I just want to tear myself apart. I want to rip out the dark coil within me. I don’t know what this coil is, but its there. And it’s suffocating me.
I don’t know what’s causing me to feel this way. I don’t know why i’m here again. I cat get my mind to function. I cant get my mind to focus. I cant associate with people. I cat communicate. I cant write, i cant laugh with sincerity.
Im just so tired. Constantly. And i’m feeling it all the time.
What is this? I don’t understand. Is this the loneliness that i was confronted with when i lost timothy? Why is it here again? I don’t miss him. Yes, i still hate him, but do i ahte him ebcause im angry at everything, or do i hate him ebcause of my past?
Sometimes, i feel so trapped in the moment, held back by my past, and supressed by my future. Im so afraid, so afraid of everything. And i don’t want to be. Over and over i fight it. And everytime, it still comes back.
I just wish I could stop being scared.