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I wonder how much it would hurt if you knew.
Not in a sadistic way, because I don't do these things to hurt you. I don't want to hurt you but I know I am. I can't stop myself from doing it. Because as much as I love and want you, and as much as I could have you, I need others too. And I think thats why I'm destined to be alone. Because I can't be satisfied with who I have. I always will take more if its available. And it is. I'm sorry. I want to stop.
Just know that I love you and he means nothing. But I need both.
I'm so sorry.
You deserve so much better.
Not in a sadistic way, because I don't do these things to hurt you. I don't want to hurt you but I know I am. I can't stop myself from doing it. Because as much as I love and want you, and as much as I could have you, I need others too. And I think thats why I'm destined to be alone. Because I can't be satisfied with who I have. I always will take more if its available. And it is. I'm sorry. I want to stop.
Just know that I love you and he means nothing. But I need both.
I'm so sorry.
You deserve so much better.