SATURDAY...
Saturday has been a "just get some rest" and eat better kind of day. Well sort of ate 'better' lol. Last thursday I weighed in at my nutritionist's and I gained (5)lbs :-o( but as usual the nutritionist and one of the assistants were very supportive and encouraging & so now I'm going back to basics and starting back to being conscious about what i'm eating and looking at what reasons i'm eating what i'm eating. So next week I will "work harder" :-)
Last week was very busy, as i've been trying to continue to do this work training with what i'm trying to do. The best part of being busy or distracted is it stops you from thinking too long about things you shouldn't even be thinking on that long lol... in the meantime i'm trying to decide how to balance out my app t schedule during the week so i'm not exhausted to the point of extreme fatigue where i'm no good by saturday. Especially if I'm going to work from home earning extra income, the energy and time have to be "FORCED" in my schedule or i'll just never finish or accomplish goals and things I start off doing.
I'm still reading this book called "Fearless Living: Living Without Excuses, Loving without Regret" By Rhonda Britten and it just continues to be more interesting and good for me to take in. I'm very glad I bought it for myself on my birthday.
***Oh, I watched the constantly talked about "Brokeback Mountain" on dvd earlier today and though i think it was a different unique story and was a very human 'real' story, I guess I don't still see why it was up for best picture, but that's just my two cents. I'm about to watch in a little bit a movie that I think wasn't out in the theaters too long, called "An Unfinished Life" with Robert Redford,Morgan Freeman, & Jennifer Lopez. Wonder what that movie's about, hmmm oh well, i'll find out later. **Also, the madonna fan who bought tickets for us to go see her concert is now tellin me that if he wins tickets through her contest's entry for tickets and the seats are better and they give him only one ticket, he told me he'll give me the ticket he's already purchased and give to me, he just won't sit next to me if he wins the better seat and then said "but i'll meet up with you after the entire concert." ........I dunno, he just in the past has been wishy washy about decisions, and i'm hoping a lot that i just am able to do...but i have to say after going to so many concerts alone without enjoying it with someone else, it will be a bummer to be sitting along someone i don't know again..sigh...oh well, that just seems to be fate.........lol............. being alone in terms of no friends, no friends to go anywhere that's a social event. Well it's a pitiful couple of sentences for me to say, so let me get off the 'drama' wheel HAHAHA LOL.
For the first week in quite a while, I didn't think of "loser" oh i mean lance and I did treated myself with more self love and didn't do the 'it's my fault, what could i have done' crap and for that i'm really proud of myself.
I'm quite nervous about this project on the internet cause I invested into it with help from some financing but still...i am new to doing quite a lot of these things alone buisness wise and work wise. It's just that something inside of me keeps saying "fuck it, go for it ALL THE WAY". I am thinking realistically, and so if i could just make a couple extra bucks so i can not struggle as much each month, i'll be feeling as if I've at least suceeded at my main goal. I'm just a bundle of nerves and scared cause I don't wanna to have invested only to invest and lose, that's why I am not allowing myself to think that way at all....but i'm human, so crossing my fingers & toes. This sure would be great if fibro could not fuck up the days when I wanna spend more time on this training so i can move quicker with stuff I need to do in terms of steps, but such as life.
Okay, enough blabbering, and thinking things to death. I'm taking a mineral water or ice tea break, maybe write in my positive affirmations journal.
Ok, that's all for now.
Last week was very busy, as i've been trying to continue to do this work training with what i'm trying to do. The best part of being busy or distracted is it stops you from thinking too long about things you shouldn't even be thinking on that long lol... in the meantime i'm trying to decide how to balance out my app t schedule during the week so i'm not exhausted to the point of extreme fatigue where i'm no good by saturday. Especially if I'm going to work from home earning extra income, the energy and time have to be "FORCED" in my schedule or i'll just never finish or accomplish goals and things I start off doing.
I'm still reading this book called "Fearless Living: Living Without Excuses, Loving without Regret" By Rhonda Britten and it just continues to be more interesting and good for me to take in. I'm very glad I bought it for myself on my birthday.
***Oh, I watched the constantly talked about "Brokeback Mountain" on dvd earlier today and though i think it was a different unique story and was a very human 'real' story, I guess I don't still see why it was up for best picture, but that's just my two cents. I'm about to watch in a little bit a movie that I think wasn't out in the theaters too long, called "An Unfinished Life" with Robert Redford,Morgan Freeman, & Jennifer Lopez. Wonder what that movie's about, hmmm oh well, i'll find out later. **Also, the madonna fan who bought tickets for us to go see her concert is now tellin me that if he wins tickets through her contest's entry for tickets and the seats are better and they give him only one ticket, he told me he'll give me the ticket he's already purchased and give to me, he just won't sit next to me if he wins the better seat and then said "but i'll meet up with you after the entire concert." ........I dunno, he just in the past has been wishy washy about decisions, and i'm hoping a lot that i just am able to do...but i have to say after going to so many concerts alone without enjoying it with someone else, it will be a bummer to be sitting along someone i don't know again..sigh...oh well, that just seems to be fate.........lol............. being alone in terms of no friends, no friends to go anywhere that's a social event. Well it's a pitiful couple of sentences for me to say, so let me get off the 'drama' wheel HAHAHA LOL.
For the first week in quite a while, I didn't think of "loser" oh i mean lance and I did treated myself with more self love and didn't do the 'it's my fault, what could i have done' crap and for that i'm really proud of myself.
I'm quite nervous about this project on the internet cause I invested into it with help from some financing but still...i am new to doing quite a lot of these things alone buisness wise and work wise. It's just that something inside of me keeps saying "fuck it, go for it ALL THE WAY". I am thinking realistically, and so if i could just make a couple extra bucks so i can not struggle as much each month, i'll be feeling as if I've at least suceeded at my main goal. I'm just a bundle of nerves and scared cause I don't wanna to have invested only to invest and lose, that's why I am not allowing myself to think that way at all....but i'm human, so crossing my fingers & toes. This sure would be great if fibro could not fuck up the days when I wanna spend more time on this training so i can move quicker with stuff I need to do in terms of steps, but such as life.
Okay, enough blabbering, and thinking things to death. I'm taking a mineral water or ice tea break, maybe write in my positive affirmations journal.
Ok, that's all for now.