- 003 - [voice]

[lightasabreeze]

[People are dead. People from her unit and her team are dead and Ali really truly doesn't know what to do. She's tried to keep a strong resolve, not draw attention to the fact she is mourning but it finally reaches breaking point and she takes out her anger in the condo that she shares with the others. Anything that isn't nailed down gets trashed

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[voice]

[militisvenator]

[ He may be still very upset and scared to answer her, but being there is the least he can do. ]

Alison....we'll...be alright.

[voice]

[lightasabreeze]

I don't want to be alright Grant.

[She'll take whatever she can and appreciate the gesture. From Grant especially.]

I want everything to go back to what it was. I know that can't happen but I don't not want it any less.

[voice]

[militisvenator]

[ He knew she was hurting just as he was. ] I understand.

Before so many started to die, we had all begun to believe it would be alright here. That...this place was better than how we had it before. But the problems here are far worse.

[voice]

[lightasabreeze]

[She's really trying to fight the tears but the thickness and the tension of her voice probably gives it away.]

I want to go home Grant. I don't w-want to lose anyone else. W-what if you all die and I'm left here alone?

I co-couldn't.... I w-wouldn't...

[voice]

[militisvenator]

I know, Alison, I know. But...we can't.

Listen to me, we're going to stick together, alright? Don't think like that. No more going off alone. We go somewhere, we go together.

We're not going to leave you here alone.

[voice]

[lightasabreeze]

But those things got in here Grant! They got in and killed Shimmer last time!! What if they do it again? What if... fuck.

[There's the sound of something smashing.]

Don't make promises you can't keep Grant! Just don't! I couldn't bare to lose any of you. It was hard enough losing C-Co... I can't.

[voice]

[militisvenator]

[ He flinched when she yelled at him. He knew she was only hurting, and tried to remain calm. ]I'm not making promises I can't keep, Alison. Please don't yell at me.

I promise that regardless of what happens we are going to stay together. That's the best thing we can do, that's the only thing we can do. And I promise that I'm going to do my best to make sure that we stay safe.

I know I can't promise that no one else will die. But I'm going to do my best to make sure it doesn't happen.

[voice]

[lightasabreeze]

[She felt guilty for yelling - she just gets so passionate about her family. Because in truth that is exactly what these guys are. Family. Her family.]

I'm sorry. I'm just... it's all so messy here.

[There's a gentle giggle though.]

You're out numbered now aren't you? Gonna have to make you an honourary girl.

[voice]

[militisvenator]

[ And he didn't fault her for that. They were the only family that Grant had ever known. ]

It's alright, I understand.

[ He's silent at the sudden change in mood/conversation, but after a moment he moves with it. ]

I hadn't realized it, but I suppose I am....No, thank you. I'm happy with my gender.

[voice]

[lightasabreeze]

Hmm.

[It's her way of coping. Denial if you will; pretending that everything is gonna be okay and trying to look at things from another perspective. It's only a short term solution though.]

I better go clean up. Thank you, for listening.

[voice]

[militisvenator]

[ He didn't mind. He was still trying to find his own way to cope. ]

Anytime, Alison. I'm here if you need me.