Prince Charming! :)
So, seriously, every girl dreams of that guy that is going to come rescue her and sweep her off of her feet. Two weeks ago, I seriously gave up on that dream. I heard "You are worthless. Why would any guy wait for you or fight for you?" You see, I had a reality check. I could sit here and talk for hours about the abusive (verbally, not physically) relationship and the CRAP that I went through, but I'm not going to sit here and pity myself and be immature. After a week of being pissed and mad at God (man.. how stupid was I?!) it was SO obvious to me all of these different times when God was like "My precious daughter, he is NOT the one for you! He is going to screw you over, trust me! You deserve better and I HAVE better for you!" But I ignored Him and I was the reason I got hurt. PRAISE GOD for getting me out of that relationship because up until a week after finding out the whole relationship was nothing but lies and being cheated on, a week after breaking up, the blindfold was removed from my eyes. I could FINALLY see it. I had been deceived COMPLETELY.
I am writing this because for the past week or so God has just really been pounding my heart with just amazing words and LOVE! You guys, I am tired of settling. I can't tell you how many freaking times when I was in that relationship my friends and family would ask me "What the heck are you doing?! You deserve SO much freaking better! He is not even in the same ballpark as you! Why are you dating down?!" But I kept trying to see the good.. but you know what? I'm DONE settling. I'm done trying to make someone else out to be better than they are.
So, God has this completely amazing GORGEOUS guy out there for me. A man of CHARACTER! A man with SELF CONTROL! Like I said, I gave up hope of this kind of prince after our break up, but you know what my mom helped me realize? There ARE still guys out there like this! There may not be many of them, but there are! Guys who will pray and be in the Word everyday for the sake of our relationship but also because he is SO in LOVE with God and so desires to be a good husband! Guys that will FIGHT for the woman they love. Guys that tell the freaking truth. Guys that can say no when being tempted by yucky girls. And I am freaking DONE settling for less.
So, for right now in my life, I know what I am supposed to be doing. I am falling more in love with my Daddy everyday, I am praying and reading about how to be a Godly wife and mother (for when the time comes) and I am praying for my future husband! I am thinking/praying about actually not kissing again until my wedding night. It would be hard, but I think it would be the perfect way to show my future husband that he IS worth waiting for and HE is more important to me than any selfish desires. I am done giving things away to undeserving assholes. And also I want a guy who feels I am worth waiting for, too! I want a guy who loves ME enough to be okay with waiting to kiss, too! I want a guy who will fight for me and who will love being in my company! Let's just say, this guy is going to have to freaking be (agreeing with Ley) one HELL of a man to get me because I am finished settling and my Daddy thinks I deserve the best! And because I am going to be POSITIVE that the next one is a man of character before I even step foot near him! I am more content than ever being single right now and just enjoying life! Enjoying friends! Studying and learning about being a worship leader! God is so GOOD! Praise Him for delivering me from such an awful situation! Praise Him for bringing me back with friends who actually care about ME! Praise Him for giving me Godly guy friends who look out for me like brothers, who can pick flowers for me without it being him hitting on me, who make me smile when I'm sad, who open doors and are respectful! Praise GOD that I can hold my head high and know that I am a beautiful daughter of Christ and am here for a huge purpose! :-) Just wanted to share some thoughts and be real!
<3 Jess
I am writing this because for the past week or so God has just really been pounding my heart with just amazing words and LOVE! You guys, I am tired of settling. I can't tell you how many freaking times when I was in that relationship my friends and family would ask me "What the heck are you doing?! You deserve SO much freaking better! He is not even in the same ballpark as you! Why are you dating down?!" But I kept trying to see the good.. but you know what? I'm DONE settling. I'm done trying to make someone else out to be better than they are.
So, God has this completely amazing GORGEOUS guy out there for me. A man of CHARACTER! A man with SELF CONTROL! Like I said, I gave up hope of this kind of prince after our break up, but you know what my mom helped me realize? There ARE still guys out there like this! There may not be many of them, but there are! Guys who will pray and be in the Word everyday for the sake of our relationship but also because he is SO in LOVE with God and so desires to be a good husband! Guys that will FIGHT for the woman they love. Guys that tell the freaking truth. Guys that can say no when being tempted by yucky girls. And I am freaking DONE settling for less.
So, for right now in my life, I know what I am supposed to be doing. I am falling more in love with my Daddy everyday, I am praying and reading about how to be a Godly wife and mother (for when the time comes) and I am praying for my future husband! I am thinking/praying about actually not kissing again until my wedding night. It would be hard, but I think it would be the perfect way to show my future husband that he IS worth waiting for and HE is more important to me than any selfish desires. I am done giving things away to undeserving assholes. And also I want a guy who feels I am worth waiting for, too! I want a guy who loves ME enough to be okay with waiting to kiss, too! I want a guy who will fight for me and who will love being in my company! Let's just say, this guy is going to have to freaking be (agreeing with Ley) one HELL of a man to get me because I am finished settling and my Daddy thinks I deserve the best! And because I am going to be POSITIVE that the next one is a man of character before I even step foot near him! I am more content than ever being single right now and just enjoying life! Enjoying friends! Studying and learning about being a worship leader! God is so GOOD! Praise Him for delivering me from such an awful situation! Praise Him for bringing me back with friends who actually care about ME! Praise Him for giving me Godly guy friends who look out for me like brothers, who can pick flowers for me without it being him hitting on me, who make me smile when I'm sad, who open doors and are respectful! Praise GOD that I can hold my head high and know that I am a beautiful daughter of Christ and am here for a huge purpose! :-) Just wanted to share some thoughts and be real!
<3 Jess