Change is in the air :)
Well, things are majorly changing in my life, and definitely for the better. I feel like for the first time in my life I have done some things for ME. Not to please others, not to do this or that, but things that will make my life less stressful and more full of God. I honestly feel like my whole life I have just let people walk all over me and take advantage of me and I have done so much to try and please them and I am tired of it! I want ot be happy too! I mean I LOVE making people happy, but when it comes to a point of being taken advantage of, oh buddy thats where it stops! :) Example of things that are changing:
*I quit my job at the clothing and jewelry store.. oh man oh man that was a messed up place. I feel such a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders. That place was supposed to be this great christian company and I was so stoked about it but I was definitely wrong. I am SO relieved to not be a part of all of the lies anymore, I just pray for the people that they are "helping" (MAJOR QUOTES AROUND THAT) overseas. :(
*Certain friendships ending or being put to a hault. This one was a lot harder than that one up there, but just as badly needed. Whether for reasons of drama and gossip I dn't need in my life, or just fake happiness but really just being emotionally beat up, or just knowing that it wasn't God's will, they have ended. And I am thankful for that because I know that God has amazing things in store in that area for the future! Iknow that with my DTS coming and Christian Surfers conference and everything God will bring along some amazing Christian friends that will encourage and uplift me! And hopefully I can do the same!
*Not attending the same church/youth group. As amazing as some of the people were there, including the best youth leader ever and some really wise awesome CHristian adults, there is no way I can go back there. I feel sorry for a lot of the people there. I decided that I am not going back to a place where I was judged from the moment I stepped into that building and when rumors started within days and where people call me things like a "slut" and say they hope my dad does die (when he was going throguh cancer treatments). Unbelievable. I definitely am just praying for those people. I love a lot of the people there so I am not judging the church as a whole, but I definitely don't ever want to go back.
Well I guess that is all I can think of for now :) I was wanting to cut my hair just so I could have a physical change as well :) but I was talked out of that one ;) On to a different note... God is so incredible. The more I lean on Him it just becomes so much more clear. He will NEVER let me down, ever. Despite how much I have screwed up and will continue to He loves me just the same. Man oh man how the world would be different if people could really love like that! "Let us stop just saying we love each other and REALLY SHOW IT BY OUR ACTIONS!" Well I hope you all are having a geat week so far! :) :)
xoxo
Jess
*I quit my job at the clothing and jewelry store.. oh man oh man that was a messed up place. I feel such a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders. That place was supposed to be this great christian company and I was so stoked about it but I was definitely wrong. I am SO relieved to not be a part of all of the lies anymore, I just pray for the people that they are "helping" (MAJOR QUOTES AROUND THAT) overseas. :(
*Certain friendships ending or being put to a hault. This one was a lot harder than that one up there, but just as badly needed. Whether for reasons of drama and gossip I dn't need in my life, or just fake happiness but really just being emotionally beat up, or just knowing that it wasn't God's will, they have ended. And I am thankful for that because I know that God has amazing things in store in that area for the future! Iknow that with my DTS coming and Christian Surfers conference and everything God will bring along some amazing Christian friends that will encourage and uplift me! And hopefully I can do the same!
*Not attending the same church/youth group. As amazing as some of the people were there, including the best youth leader ever and some really wise awesome CHristian adults, there is no way I can go back there. I feel sorry for a lot of the people there. I decided that I am not going back to a place where I was judged from the moment I stepped into that building and when rumors started within days and where people call me things like a "slut" and say they hope my dad does die (when he was going throguh cancer treatments). Unbelievable. I definitely am just praying for those people. I love a lot of the people there so I am not judging the church as a whole, but I definitely don't ever want to go back.
Well I guess that is all I can think of for now :) I was wanting to cut my hair just so I could have a physical change as well :) but I was talked out of that one ;) On to a different note... God is so incredible. The more I lean on Him it just becomes so much more clear. He will NEVER let me down, ever. Despite how much I have screwed up and will continue to He loves me just the same. Man oh man how the world would be different if people could really love like that! "Let us stop just saying we love each other and REALLY SHOW IT BY OUR ACTIONS!" Well I hope you all are having a geat week so far! :) :)
xoxo
Jess