Bonjour Julliet. Gutten Tag Zimmer
F 6.30.06
Month over. Chasing a buck on the Boulevard with boulevardiers a treadmill for sure. Glad to have a chance at bat. No homers. Just a single a day with a $60 keeping me in the standing with the shop clerks. The upshot is that I am doing. Producing. Blessing of service to others and the vicarious attraction of pretty half-dressed boobs and butt on a scorching hot day. I shoot some pictures. One tour assembled from Sydney. The day before. Houston. Sydney great and lively with a nine year old and packet of triplets. Houston. Spoiled boys with Mom. Ripped thru a twelve pack. Obnoxious. Needless to say Aussies given best show whereas Houston glad to say farewell. Have a tipping point. Once my rate drops below 10 per hour I book otherwise its minimum wage.
Starship holds great appeal as I still lobby. My Persian pal actually got on the phone with Boss speaking Persian and pitched an appeal. I was amazed like he was a made guy and secret power behind throne throwing his weight into mix. He actually directly and at once. Not understanding a word he was saying, he spoke with authority and familiarity with the boss of the bosses. Jaw dropping in it' directness or else I am delusional. He reported Boss would call me. Jeff told me later the Starship owners are Bai Hai whereas I believe them exiled Jews from the Shah's regime.
Kenny called re: sponsorship. I need to work a close reading of the owner's manual. My mind has gone into too many bad neighborhoods. The anger and resentment is beyond my predictable range and that's what scares me most. A delusion can take over my mind and my reaction to life is hostile. Desmond had to witness this insanity the other day while he was in tow. He had to watch me go thru the amends process and relate to him how Daddy was wrong about something and needed to straighten it out. I can't carry the burden of being a jerk for more than an hour. Funny how cigarettes once kept this rage under wraps for so long. Being angry is preferable to smoking alto it can get out of hand.
Pulled over with a warning about my registration on Thursday. "Ruttman" said the motorcycle cops name tag. Better act on this asap. Goose is cooked otherwise.
Great couple low key days with Dez. HIs basketball practice interesting as I watch him get up to speed with very gifted boys dribbling, passing and shooting hoops. Like his Dad, a total klutz at this game yet its about his heart and effort applied in trying. Sweet boy and watched all this with grandpa of a whole brood name Augustine from Sonora, Mexico. Nice guy to befriend. Probably the local mafia chief. Made his way to USA and worked in a restaurant as he put it. That could mean anything, dishwasher, busboy whatever. A willingness to make it in L.A. and provide for his family is the inspiration.
These last two months have flown by.... working for peanuts but I get out and bills paid. "Baby won't you ride my car!" No real iron in the fire. Gotta redouble effort. Thanks God for Cape yet that's gonna be in play now that there is legal storm underway. Travel trade not yielding cash I dreamed about, eg #$200 a day. Not a pretty picture until this changes.
Month over. Chasing a buck on the Boulevard with boulevardiers a treadmill for sure. Glad to have a chance at bat. No homers. Just a single a day with a $60 keeping me in the standing with the shop clerks. The upshot is that I am doing. Producing. Blessing of service to others and the vicarious attraction of pretty half-dressed boobs and butt on a scorching hot day. I shoot some pictures. One tour assembled from Sydney. The day before. Houston. Sydney great and lively with a nine year old and packet of triplets. Houston. Spoiled boys with Mom. Ripped thru a twelve pack. Obnoxious. Needless to say Aussies given best show whereas Houston glad to say farewell. Have a tipping point. Once my rate drops below 10 per hour I book otherwise its minimum wage.
Starship holds great appeal as I still lobby. My Persian pal actually got on the phone with Boss speaking Persian and pitched an appeal. I was amazed like he was a made guy and secret power behind throne throwing his weight into mix. He actually directly and at once. Not understanding a word he was saying, he spoke with authority and familiarity with the boss of the bosses. Jaw dropping in it' directness or else I am delusional. He reported Boss would call me. Jeff told me later the Starship owners are Bai Hai whereas I believe them exiled Jews from the Shah's regime.
Kenny called re: sponsorship. I need to work a close reading of the owner's manual. My mind has gone into too many bad neighborhoods. The anger and resentment is beyond my predictable range and that's what scares me most. A delusion can take over my mind and my reaction to life is hostile. Desmond had to witness this insanity the other day while he was in tow. He had to watch me go thru the amends process and relate to him how Daddy was wrong about something and needed to straighten it out. I can't carry the burden of being a jerk for more than an hour. Funny how cigarettes once kept this rage under wraps for so long. Being angry is preferable to smoking alto it can get out of hand.
Pulled over with a warning about my registration on Thursday. "Ruttman" said the motorcycle cops name tag. Better act on this asap. Goose is cooked otherwise.
Great couple low key days with Dez. HIs basketball practice interesting as I watch him get up to speed with very gifted boys dribbling, passing and shooting hoops. Like his Dad, a total klutz at this game yet its about his heart and effort applied in trying. Sweet boy and watched all this with grandpa of a whole brood name Augustine from Sonora, Mexico. Nice guy to befriend. Probably the local mafia chief. Made his way to USA and worked in a restaurant as he put it. That could mean anything, dishwasher, busboy whatever. A willingness to make it in L.A. and provide for his family is the inspiration.
These last two months have flown by.... working for peanuts but I get out and bills paid. "Baby won't you ride my car!" No real iron in the fire. Gotta redouble effort. Thanks God for Cape yet that's gonna be in play now that there is legal storm underway. Travel trade not yielding cash I dreamed about, eg #$200 a day. Not a pretty picture until this changes.