i wish i was as happy as i am pretending to be...
Another crappy morning but i just said fuck it and pretended to be happy for most of the day, lunch was kinda awkward, i dont' know why either. Spanish and math were fun like always, haha good times. And all day i had to wear this lame paper heart for child development and i ripped it everytime someone was mean haha i actually had fun, im such a nerd. but i didn't see ryan today it was really depressing.
ugh new thoughts and feelings toward the whole situation i really need to get everything out. Im calling Richard tomorrow no matter what. i really hate pretending to be happy its kinda pointless but i don't know what else to do
I had a soccer meeting tonight, i dont' have a good feeling towards the team this year that makes me nervous. but we have practice tomorrow and ya. i guess im kinda excited but kinda not. o well we'll see how it goes.
o yesss one more thought i hate derek with a passion, what an asshole!
ugh new thoughts and feelings toward the whole situation i really need to get everything out. Im calling Richard tomorrow no matter what. i really hate pretending to be happy its kinda pointless but i don't know what else to do
I had a soccer meeting tonight, i dont' have a good feeling towards the team this year that makes me nervous. but we have practice tomorrow and ya. i guess im kinda excited but kinda not. o well we'll see how it goes.
o yesss one more thought i hate derek with a passion, what an asshole!