I just fucking give up

Jul 29, 2005 04:28

It is 4:30 am Pennsylvania time. I can't get my brain to shut off.

I realised that I still have $500 to pay off on my computer, which I thought that I would be able to pay off, but with two therapists that took my money and really didn't help me, that took alot of my money.

I am going flat broke and it really scares me. Yes I know I live at home, but my parents (espically my father) really don't help me. But they help my sister every chance they fucking get. They are paying 100% of her computer off. I have 4 credit cards to pay for and I don't know what I am going to do.

I thought selling Avon would help me make some money, but lately it's just been me buying the stuff.

My dog just destryoed some things I was going to take back, so now I have to pay for them.

I hate this feeling.

I know alot of you don't give a shit about what I have to say here, but this is the only thing that really keeps my from loosing my fucking mind and doing something....not good. Maybe this is just my cancer ways and I am just freaking out over nothing. I don't know. I just know that I am going to loose it soon.

So...just let me know that you are here for me...because I am so close to just having a meltdown.
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