Give me the good news
Christ, this is so hard. A lot more than I thought I'd be feeling.
And I'm not smiling tonight. Not at all. It was raining outside and I ran my ass off. Barefoot. Playing football with people I don't even know. I guess this is what I wanted. Needed more like it. Meet new people and get away. But explain this knot in my throat? Untie it...hah, if I could only hear those words again. I can only write dumb entries and letters that won't even be sent. Contain it all for my secret misery. I want to hear everything a girl in my position wouldn't want to hear..something that makes my fists clench and then maybe I can let it all go. And realize it's been gone for awhile now. I didn't run, I just hid my face. Smile for me, please.
And I'm not smiling tonight. Not at all. It was raining outside and I ran my ass off. Barefoot. Playing football with people I don't even know. I guess this is what I wanted. Needed more like it. Meet new people and get away. But explain this knot in my throat? Untie it...hah, if I could only hear those words again. I can only write dumb entries and letters that won't even be sent. Contain it all for my secret misery. I want to hear everything a girl in my position wouldn't want to hear..something that makes my fists clench and then maybe I can let it all go. And realize it's been gone for awhile now. I didn't run, I just hid my face. Smile for me, please.