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I am glad to be here. I am glad to be able to spend time with Naruto. I feel blessed for getting to do such things that any other parent who sacrifices themselves for their child's well being can not. I've found myself thanking Paradisa for bringing me here rather than cursing it, feeling as though it is hell, or begging it to send me home. I have nothing to go back to - I have everything here.
But I find myself wondering why Kushina isn't as lucky as I am. Why was she sent back? Why did I only get to be with her for a few short months more? Why did she only barely get to know her son before she went back to... wherever we're destined to go? I find it hard to be as thankful as I should be when I have to fall asleep in an empty bed, without her beside me... It hurts. I've never known it to hurt to not be near someone before, but I should've known it would hurt to be without her. She was my life for so long, after all.
Spending time with him eases that blow, however. When I'm with Naruto, I can see her shining through, and it reminds me what a wonderful person we've created together. He is so much like her... I don't think he even knows quite how much.
Mm. She's been on my mind too much lately. I should find a distraction.
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[a few pen taps in thought before a chuckle is heard]
Mm - that boy who wanted to know if we were going on a date because of the auction! I never did find out your name~!
I am glad to be here. I am glad to be able to spend time with Naruto. I feel blessed for getting to do such things that any other parent who sacrifices themselves for their child's well being can not. I've found myself thanking Paradisa for bringing me here rather than cursing it, feeling as though it is hell, or begging it to send me home. I have nothing to go back to - I have everything here.
But I find myself wondering why Kushina isn't as lucky as I am. Why was she sent back? Why did I only get to be with her for a few short months more? Why did she only barely get to know her son before she went back to... wherever we're destined to go? I find it hard to be as thankful as I should be when I have to fall asleep in an empty bed, without her beside me... It hurts. I've never known it to hurt to not be near someone before, but I should've known it would hurt to be without her. She was my life for so long, after all.
Spending time with him eases that blow, however. When I'm with Naruto, I can see her shining through, and it reminds me what a wonderful person we've created together. He is so much like her... I don't think he even knows quite how much.
Mm. She's been on my mind too much lately. I should find a distraction.
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[a few pen taps in thought before a chuckle is heard]
Mm - that boy who wanted to know if we were going on a date because of the auction! I never did find out your name~!