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Well, that was... really freaking stupid! Stupid castle! It better never do something retarded like that again! That week was completely pointless!
Kind of...!
[pauses]
I never really had a lot of time to sit down and think about the loss while it was happening, though, other than wishing it was over and trying to get some sleep. I hate to say it like this but I'm glad to be back to... "normal" or whatever. I felt so weird that entire week, like I was off balance or something stupid like that, and I keep wondering if that's how Allen always feels. I wonder if he felt like that with Kyuubi inside of him, too. I trusted him, though! So I knew nothing would happen. Still, I hated not feeling like myself. I'll never, never acknowledge that stupid fox as a part of me, but I hated having something inside of me that was so foreign and not even from my world; something evil and gross and... I don't know. I didn't like it. The silence felt worse than Kyuubi's constant insults and pissy attitude sometimes. I'd rather have that than the feeling like something really bad is coming but I don't know what or when or how. I hated the quiet when it was like that because I could feel the tension. I could actually feel that something was there that shouldn't be.
Maybe that means I'm just used to- [cuts himself off, not wanting to admit it out loud]
I want to ask Allen about the 14th more but I know he hates talking about it. He'd have more reason to now, though, right? Tch, either way! He's my best friend here so I'll just make him tell me!
[a sigh as he pauses and probably flexes his arm that was broken for a week]
I'm glad a lot of people didn't find out about it, either. It's bad enough that too many people know about me. I don't want the same thing to happen to him...
...
Plus, he'd have kicked my ass.
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[have a gigantic, obnoxious yawn before his mattress squeaks]
Nothing's better than fifteen hours of sleep after a week of dreaming nightmares!
[[ooc: Demon-switching joint loss with Allen is over ♥]]