002 ✈ being bold
[Nathan has spent a great deal of time reading the journal. Mostly his own entries but a few that had been directed to him, a few that were transcribed from events he knows he had to have experienced regardless of the lack of memories in his mind. Part of him wonders, if they are locked away somewhere in his subconscious, but he also realizes that even though he's in a magic castle, if someone were able to tap into that - someone would've by now. It's more astounding to him to actually read of the things he was doing here, and how drastically different they are from his motivations at home... the hindsight he's been given is more than a simple startling look back, but a slap in the face]
[speaking of slaps in the face ~hey hear that shift of ice in a bag? That's because it's a small bag of ice to his jaw ~ since Mal opted to deck him last night]
[Inara Serra ~ written]
I'm terribly sorry, and I know I'm not the man you knew. I've read these entries and I'm jealous of the life he was living. He seemed so sure of things, and here I find myself in over my head a bit more than I was back home. It seems I hurt you as well, by leaving the last time. I've been made more than aware of that, and how you have people who care for you here.
I'm sorry if I broke any promises to you, by reading these entries I know that I intended to keep them to you.
I was very lucky to have a woman like you in my life, and I would be remiss if I didn't take a chance to tell you that. I also don't expect anything from you, I'm sure this isn't the easiest thing to deal with, and I'll give you whatever space and privacy you need.
The path I was on before I arrived here wasn't one that many who are here agree with. I'd be lying if I said it was one many agreed with at home either. Having this time, even this small span of it has given me a bit of space from my actions. While I'm not sure what others may think of me over time, I do hope that you see a small part of the man you cared for somewhere, perhaps selfishly hoping, but I'd hate to think that I've lost that man completely.
Thank you Inara, for everything you had been for me.
Nathan
[/Inara]
[dictated~]
Well after finding a decent cup of coffee it's a relief that wasn't replaced by pound cake as well.
[speaking of slaps in the face ~hey hear that shift of ice in a bag? That's because it's a small bag of ice to his jaw ~ since Mal opted to deck him last night]
[Inara Serra ~ written]
I'm terribly sorry, and I know I'm not the man you knew. I've read these entries and I'm jealous of the life he was living. He seemed so sure of things, and here I find myself in over my head a bit more than I was back home. It seems I hurt you as well, by leaving the last time. I've been made more than aware of that, and how you have people who care for you here.
I'm sorry if I broke any promises to you, by reading these entries I know that I intended to keep them to you.
I was very lucky to have a woman like you in my life, and I would be remiss if I didn't take a chance to tell you that. I also don't expect anything from you, I'm sure this isn't the easiest thing to deal with, and I'll give you whatever space and privacy you need.
The path I was on before I arrived here wasn't one that many who are here agree with. I'd be lying if I said it was one many agreed with at home either. Having this time, even this small span of it has given me a bit of space from my actions. While I'm not sure what others may think of me over time, I do hope that you see a small part of the man you cared for somewhere, perhaps selfishly hoping, but I'd hate to think that I've lost that man completely.
Thank you Inara, for everything you had been for me.
Nathan
[/Inara]
[dictated~]
Well after finding a decent cup of coffee it's a relief that wasn't replaced by pound cake as well.