002 - Can't get through to you

[xiaomeimei]

[bit of a sigh, then a few doodles 'round the edges of the journal, twisting up the sides, nothing of much meaning, really, though maybe a heart or two before she scribbles them out, then dictated forever]Seems Simon an' River are both here, but I ain't seen either of them. Simon...don't remember me, though. I mean, it weren't filtered, so. I

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[chasingvisions]

Gravitate toward the friends who do know your name.

[xiaomeimei]

Yeah, I guess...but there's really only...I mean, River's here, but I ain't seen her an' I hate to bother Inara.

[chasingvisions]

New friends sometimes helps. I've made a few since I got here.

[xiaomeimei]

I guess I just need to actually get out a bit more...

[lady_girasol]

Yer tried that outdoor bath thing yet? S'awful good fer stress relief, I find.

[xiaomeimei]

...Outdoor bath?

[gracefulwoman]

Oh, Kaylee. I'm so sorry.

[xiaomeimei]

It ain't your fault.

[gracefulwoman]

I know, mei mei, but...I hate to see you hurting.

[xiaomeimei]

I'll be okay.

[qiuanyi]

...I'm sorry. I...think we're both recovering from New York. It was... [trails off]

I didn't know how to - that is - it's very strange.

But I know we became...close, and I don't see why that couldn't happen again.

We could...make new memories?

[xiaomeimei]

[long pause and she's not even sure she wants to answer, 'cause it's a bit mortifying he heard that and decided to say something]

If you don't know who I am, why would you even want to? You don't know nothin' about me.

[qiuanyi]

[equally long pause, as is a bit mortified he responded]

I know you kept Serenity flying. That means something.

I know Inara likes you, and not trusting Inara's taste would be...illogical.

I know you, um, have a cute pretty nice cute voice, and you care about River, and...

And I'm not very good at making friends, or...anything else, so the fact that I - did. That's...special.

...And I'm rambling. Did I often ramble in front of you?

[xiaomeimei]

[little smile you can almost hear in her voice just because, well, that is so very much like him, yes...but then her voice is very tentative again...]

Yeah, you...always sort of do that. Got a real habit of tending to put your foot in your mouth an' say all sorts of things maybe you oughtn't.

[aint_quiteright]

Kaylee... [she smiles and there is a slight moment of relief, but it shifts as she hears about Simon]

He is here then. I thought.. maybe I was wrong. That the math had added up on the wrong side.

[xiaomeimei]

...River? [hasn't actually gotten to speak to her or see her after all?]

You ain't seen him? He's been looking for you.