attempt number twenty-eight ♓ (dictated/action)
[ Claire is down at the gym, beating up the punching bags -- with a lot of gusto, too. Okay, so maybe it wasn't the healthiest way to deal with Akihiko leaving -- because she's spent so long buried in her training and trying to be stronger and be a hero and be more than just some ... stupid human shield, that she hasn't really done anything else in so long, that Akihiko being gone is still the freshest personal thing in her mind.
And, the fact that the castle seems to just be going on with it's wacky, stressful schedule while her life got leveled like that kinda drives her nuts. In fact, it really does. So, she's out of breath and still punching while she dictates to the journal -- it's meant to be private, but she's distracted. ]
It really figures, doesn't it? I mean, everything around here just keeps -- [ a grunt as she punches ] -- moving like nothing's different, and meanwhile, you just get stuck in the mud. And you can't do anything about it, because this stupid castle is stronger than all of us. So it's just like you're left behind and everything else just keeps happening without you. And no one even cares that you're still stuck.
[ The thump noise of a pointed punch. ] I hate that feeling. I hate feeling ... powerless. And I hate that I feel stupid for letting it still get to me and not just moving on with my life like everyone else seems to do.
They make it seem so easy. [ She shuts her eyes, resting her gloved hand against the punching bag and then resting her forehead against it, breathing deeply and calming down some. She sighs. ] I don't get it.
[ People are free to run into Claire down in the gym while she continues to get her aggression with how everything in the castle seems to have just forgotten Akihiko was ever there out on the punching bags. Alternatively, open via journal! ]
And, the fact that the castle seems to just be going on with it's wacky, stressful schedule while her life got leveled like that kinda drives her nuts. In fact, it really does. So, she's out of breath and still punching while she dictates to the journal -- it's meant to be private, but she's distracted. ]
It really figures, doesn't it? I mean, everything around here just keeps -- [ a grunt as she punches ] -- moving like nothing's different, and meanwhile, you just get stuck in the mud. And you can't do anything about it, because this stupid castle is stronger than all of us. So it's just like you're left behind and everything else just keeps happening without you. And no one even cares that you're still stuck.
[ The thump noise of a pointed punch. ] I hate that feeling. I hate feeling ... powerless. And I hate that I feel stupid for letting it still get to me and not just moving on with my life like everyone else seems to do.
They make it seem so easy. [ She shuts her eyes, resting her gloved hand against the punching bag and then resting her forehead against it, breathing deeply and calming down some. She sighs. ] I don't get it.
[ People are free to run into Claire down in the gym while she continues to get her aggression with how everything in the castle seems to have just forgotten Akihiko was ever there out on the punching bags. Alternatively, open via journal! ]