[he doesn't respond right away, because in some instances she's right. he knows that. but ... it's way more complicated for him]
Look, for the record, I'm not mad at you. Not completely. A lot of it's the castle, and a lot of it is at myself, but you have to see it from my point of view as well.
I know she's not you. Believe me, I do. But it's easy for you to just wave this all away when you haven't lived this yet, and I have, both here and at home. I lost pretty much everything because of you, so you're not exactly high on my list of favorite people right now.
[there's a beat, and he's rubbing his eyes as he tries to put this into the right words]
To be perfectly honest, Ruby? I was hoping that you'd never come back here. Now that you're here, I have to deal with it, so I'm sorry if that's inconvenient for you, but I'm gonna need a little time. I'm not coming after you, and I'm not gonna bad mouth you to everyone else, but I'm not going to magically become your best friend over night, either.
[ There's a barely audible sigh of relief that he actually replied. She really didn't know what she was going to do if he was even ignoring her over these stupid things. It's not like she'd managed to find him around the castle -- and she had been looking. ]
You really know how to make a girl feel welcome, dontcha?
Look, I'm not asking for membership in your Babysitters' Club, Sam. I'm not expecting that, and I'm not expecting you start trusting me again overnight. But, you did it once. And when you did it here, you didn't get screwed for it. So, take all the time you need; avoid me, figure out how you feel, ... whatever.
I don't care how you cope. But, I'm not going anywhere.
Trust me, I know. For instance, I'm about as far as you can get from interested in playing hunter's girlfriend. All I'm looking for is a chance to show you I'm not who you think I am.
I get it, you're having a hard time. I feel for you, really, but you gotta understand, Sammy, this ain't exactly a cakewalk for me, either.
[ Awkward pause. Excuse her while she swallows her pride for the greater good of her current ploy. ]
I didn't exactly come outta Hell with a lot of friends, all right? I'm a demon who kills other demons. I'm not on anybody's Christmas list.
You have every reason not to trust me, but I'm gonna do everything in my power to prove that you can.
Yeah, but you have friends here, Ruby. I know you may not remember them, but they're here. Crowley, York, Bela -- hell, I even think Grif is around. There are other people for you to talk to aside from me.
Don't put all your energy into getting me to trust you again. Try ... branching out a bit. This isn't home -- it won't kill you.
[ Oh, she is, Sam. But, you don't need to know that -- in fact, it's better for her if you don't. Instead, she'll just put on an offended front that he's trying to teach her how to make friends. ]
Yeah, no shit, Sherlock. It's social interaction, not rocket science, I don't need the for dummies version.
And as much as I appreciate you keeping track of my MySpace top 8, I don't trust them. You of all people should get why, given what a charming individual I was the last time I was here.
You think I'm happy admitting you're all I've got?
[there might be a snort of a laugh there. Sorry, Ruby, but it's kind of amusing]
Crowley may be a demon, but he's not a bad friend -- I mean, his two best friends are angels. York is good people -- I don't really know Grif that well. And Bela -- well, Bela's Bela but she hasn't been all that bad here.
[if he were Dean, he'd probably say something about her getting laid doing wonders for her personality]
Look, for the record, I'm not mad at you. Not completely. A lot of it's the castle, and a lot of it is at myself, but you have to see it from my point of view as well.
I know she's not you. Believe me, I do. But it's easy for you to just wave this all away when you haven't lived this yet, and I have, both here and at home. I lost pretty much everything because of you, so you're not exactly high on my list of favorite people right now.
[there's a beat, and he's rubbing his eyes as he tries to put this into the right words]
To be perfectly honest, Ruby? I was hoping that you'd never come back here. Now that you're here, I have to deal with it, so I'm sorry if that's inconvenient for you, but I'm gonna need a little time. I'm not coming after you, and I'm not gonna bad mouth you to everyone else, but I'm not going to magically become your best friend over night, either.
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You really know how to make a girl feel welcome, dontcha?
Look, I'm not asking for membership in your Babysitters' Club, Sam. I'm not expecting that, and I'm not expecting you start trusting me again overnight. But, you did it once. And when you did it here, you didn't get screwed for it. So, take all the time you need; avoid me, figure out how you feel, ... whatever.
I don't care how you cope. But, I'm not going anywhere.
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Yeah. I'm aware of that.
And I did do it here, but you said it yourself, you're not her. Those were a certain set of circumstances, and now those circumstances are different.
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I get it, you're having a hard time. I feel for you, really, but you gotta understand, Sammy, this ain't exactly a cakewalk for me, either.
[ Awkward pause. Excuse her while she swallows her pride for the greater good of her current ploy. ]
I didn't exactly come outta Hell with a lot of friends, all right? I'm a demon who kills other demons. I'm not on anybody's Christmas list.
You have every reason not to trust me, but I'm gonna do everything in my power to prove that you can.
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Don't put all your energy into getting me to trust you again. Try ... branching out a bit. This isn't home -- it won't kill you.
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Yeah, no shit, Sherlock. It's social interaction, not rocket science, I don't need the for dummies version.
And as much as I appreciate you keeping track of my MySpace top 8, I don't trust them. You of all people should get why, given what a charming individual I was the last time I was here.
You think I'm happy admitting you're all I've got?
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Crowley may be a demon, but he's not a bad friend -- I mean, his two best friends are angels. York is good people -- I don't really know Grif that well. And Bela -- well, Bela's Bela but she hasn't been all that bad here.
[if he were Dean, he'd probably say something about her getting laid doing wonders for her personality]
I trust them. Is that good enough for you?
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[see, Ruby, you were actually making progress, but now you're just pissing him off again]
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I'm still not dropping by anytime soon.
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