─ ninety-two
[ private ]
[ written ]
It’s October nineteenth - that makes it a year. A whole year in Paradisa. Unless the time I was home is counted out? And this whole time, I’ve been the only one from home save for Shindou-san and Ichirou-kun but they weren’t here very long. I miss them... I miss Mom and Dad but she would probably cackle at me and say something like, “Ha! I knew it! Now come home.”
[ normally, something like that would annoy her a bit. yukie takamura, trying to persuade her daughter to come live back home, as if she couldn’t handle being alone. instead, she laughs because only a wonderful and concerned mother like yukie would do that. ]
I hope she’s been happy with Dad. Hm, I wish there was some way to see they were all fine. I want to see what Shindou-san and Ichirou-kun have been up to, too! I wonder if Shindou-san’s found some happiness. [ pause ] When he was here, did he find it? He didn’t seem to hang out with anyone but he never came off as angry or sad. Though, I did promise to stay by his side. I guess I’m a little disappointed I couldn’t keep that promise but I know he’s fine back home with everyone else. It’s been a year but that doesn’t mean I’m stuck here. Everyone leaves at some point. Even if... I don’t feel like leaving yet, they would understand, I hope. There’s still a lot I want to do here, for my friends. Knowing some of their troubles; Allen-kun and the 14th, Minato-kun’s fate back home, Castiel-san and his family and... [ a long pause as she reflects on the last one ] Damian’s future. I’ve never once regretted learning these things because it makes me happy to know, I’m here for them. Being even a small pillar of strength, it’s good enough for anyone, right? No matter what happens, even if we forget, it doesn’t change the fact I did something. That we did something. Paradisa might erase memories but not the actions.
So, I don’t mind staying longer. Everything that I’ve seen here, blood, fighting, tears, laughter... people who aren’t human! The costumed heroes, angels and demons - I wouldn’t change it for anything. Maybe we’re here for a reason after all. I think - I know - I’ve grown in Paradisa so far. I don’t measure up to a lot of my friends but I’ll work on it for however long I’m here for.
Besides, there’s still so much to learn! I want to learn some self-defense, Crowley-san said he would teach me Arabic (but Miss al Ghul is gone now?), I promised Colette-chan I would be waiting here when she was able to return and maybe somehow there’s a way to make sure Damian doesn’t grow up alone. It’s like that saying, “Where there’s a will, there’s a way”!
...I guess in the end, I have to be thankful for being able to experience all these things. [ pen taps and finally she adds in: ] I still think you’re a strange place, Paradisa.
For every bad memory, I’ll just make a new one.
[ crowley-san ]
Are you alright?
[ dictated now, as she lays outside in the grass and watching the trees do their funky color thing. ]
Today makes a whole year I've been in Paradisa. It feels kind of strange but I've gotten to meet a lot of interesting and incredible people here.
[ SAPPY WORDS COMING UP... 3... 2... 1... ]
So... thank you, to everyone I've ever befriended or even spoken to. For everything. [ a long pause and then there's a flustered noise ] Becauseitmeansalotandokaythankyouagain! And for a lot of the new residents, welcome to Paradisa!
[ lavi-kun ]
Ah, are you feeling-- er-- strange still?
[ written ]
It’s October nineteenth - that makes it a year. A whole year in Paradisa. Unless the time I was home is counted out? And this whole time, I’ve been the only one from home save for Shindou-san and Ichirou-kun but they weren’t here very long. I miss them... I miss Mom and Dad but she would probably cackle at me and say something like, “Ha! I knew it! Now come home.”
[ normally, something like that would annoy her a bit. yukie takamura, trying to persuade her daughter to come live back home, as if she couldn’t handle being alone. instead, she laughs because only a wonderful and concerned mother like yukie would do that. ]
I hope she’s been happy with Dad. Hm, I wish there was some way to see they were all fine. I want to see what Shindou-san and Ichirou-kun have been up to, too! I wonder if Shindou-san’s found some happiness. [ pause ] When he was here, did he find it? He didn’t seem to hang out with anyone but he never came off as angry or sad. Though, I did promise to stay by his side. I guess I’m a little disappointed I couldn’t keep that promise but I know he’s fine back home with everyone else. It’s been a year but that doesn’t mean I’m stuck here. Everyone leaves at some point. Even if... I don’t feel like leaving yet, they would understand, I hope. There’s still a lot I want to do here, for my friends. Knowing some of their troubles; Allen-kun and the 14th, Minato-kun’s fate back home, Castiel-san and his family and... [ a long pause as she reflects on the last one ] Damian’s future. I’ve never once regretted learning these things because it makes me happy to know, I’m here for them. Being even a small pillar of strength, it’s good enough for anyone, right? No matter what happens, even if we forget, it doesn’t change the fact I did something. That we did something. Paradisa might erase memories but not the actions.
So, I don’t mind staying longer. Everything that I’ve seen here, blood, fighting, tears, laughter... people who aren’t human! The costumed heroes, angels and demons - I wouldn’t change it for anything. Maybe we’re here for a reason after all. I think - I know - I’ve grown in Paradisa so far. I don’t measure up to a lot of my friends but I’ll work on it for however long I’m here for.
Besides, there’s still so much to learn! I want to learn some self-defense, Crowley-san said he would teach me Arabic (but Miss al Ghul is gone now?), I promised Colette-chan I would be waiting here when she was able to return and maybe somehow there’s a way to make sure Damian doesn’t grow up alone. It’s like that saying, “Where there’s a will, there’s a way”!
...I guess in the end, I have to be thankful for being able to experience all these things. [ pen taps and finally she adds in: ] I still think you’re a strange place, Paradisa.
For every bad memory, I’ll just make a new one.
[ crowley-san ]
Are you alright?
[ dictated now, as she lays outside in the grass and watching the trees do their funky color thing. ]
Today makes a whole year I've been in Paradisa. It feels kind of strange but I've gotten to meet a lot of interesting and incredible people here.
[ SAPPY WORDS COMING UP... 3... 2... 1... ]
So... thank you, to everyone I've ever befriended or even spoken to. For everything. [ a long pause and then there's a flustered noise ] Becauseitmeansalotandokaythankyouagain! And for a lot of the new residents, welcome to Paradisa!
[ lavi-kun ]
Ah, are you feeling-- er-- strange still?