† 40th downfall [written]
[Private]
[This entry is entirely dictated]
I am happy for both of them. Abel is able to live happily with the women he loves. Gunslinger returns to a world where he will never be forced to feel inadequate or experience another betrayal by Abel. A world where his decision to be my machine will never be mocked by a castle whim.
[....]
Why is it then that I feel so unhappy myself? Even though they both have what they truly desire... I am miserable. Am I truly so awful that their happiness cannot fill my heart?
.... Of course I am. I am an awful woman with a jealous heart regardless of the state of my body and health. That will never change.
[To those who knew Father Tres Iqus]
Father Tres Iqus has returned home.
[This entry is entirely dictated]
I am happy for both of them. Abel is able to live happily with the women he loves. Gunslinger returns to a world where he will never be forced to feel inadequate or experience another betrayal by Abel. A world where his decision to be my machine will never be mocked by a castle whim.
[....]
Why is it then that I feel so unhappy myself? Even though they both have what they truly desire... I am miserable. Am I truly so awful that their happiness cannot fill my heart?
.... Of course I am. I am an awful woman with a jealous heart regardless of the state of my body and health. That will never change.
[To those who knew Father Tres Iqus]
Father Tres Iqus has returned home.