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[bedninja]

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[kingpendragon]

My purpose is to be a just and fair king, and to protect my kingdom, with my life if necessary. And it is to prepare my son to rule aftr I am gone.

[And Arthur, if you make any comments about him being 'fair and just', he'll let you have it. Verbally, anyway.]

[bedninja]

Then you are considered to be royalty in your world, and you have found your purpose in looking over your kingdom, as well as your family.

Do you believe this purpose was something that you were meant to do with your life? Or was it something you brought about with your own abilities?

[kingpendragon]

I must attribute it to my abilities. Camelot was in a state of chaos when I came to the land. Nobles battled for control and dragons terrorized the people. I became king only after conquering.

[bedninja]

So it was not, to your knowledge, an act of fate, and yet you believe it is your purpose in life regardless of that?

[kingpendragon]

Yes, I have come to believe that. It has become my reason for living, at least. I can only focus on what remains, my son,my ward and my kingdom, because they are all I have left...what is lost is gone.

[Igraine was everything...sometimes, now, he still wonders if his life has meaning. He feels sometimes as though the reason for his life vanished with her death. And now, he cannot help feeling that he is losing Arthur as well. He desperately wishes the boy would listen to reason, but he will not.]

[bedninja]

Then it would seem that you have been left with quite a bit yet, does it not? You may have lost, and I am sure that must have been very difficult, but you have at least not lost everything.

[kingpendragon]

No, that is true. Although at times, it feels as though more is slipping away from me.

[Arthur, of course.]

[bedninja]

[of course.]

I cannot imagine that is a very pleasant sort of feeling; hopefully you will be able to prevent it from doing so in actuality.

[kingpendragon]

I am hopeful. I think it might prove difficult, though.

[But then, is anything with teen or young adult kids *ever* easy? He just hopes he finds a way before it's over.]

[bedninja]

Then I hope you will not have a difficult time with it! I imagine it would be quite disheartening to let something so important slip away from you in such a way, after all.

[kingpendragon]

Yes, it certainly would.

[He hates the idea of spending all of his time here fighting Arthur, and he is uncertain what will happen back home. Will they remember this? Will things become even worse?]