176.
I should have been able to help her, damn it! [there's a frustrated sound before a long stretch of silence, trying to calm down but it isn't working when a psycho demon is in his head agreeing with him]
All these people have been hurt but no one's even- [cut off again, suddenly yelling lmao he must sound crazy]
I'M NOT WEAK, YOU BASTARD, SHUT UP!
[pace pace pace]
I should be out there kicking that guys ass yet I'm in here yelling at myself.
[s-sigh] But it's a loss, right? He doesn't deserve to be hurt, just stopped. But I'm still not-
...
I need to stop fucking treating this place like home.
[journal shut roughly]