I'm beautiful
Over the years I have been bulemic, anorexic, and an exercise freak. My weight has never been steady. But today, I look in the mirror, and I really felt beautiful. For the first time in a long time, I am happy with who I am. It's taken me a long time to get here, but my happiness is no longer contingent on my weight. I'm not the lightest I've ever been, but I feel really good. I think I look the way I am supposed to look. I'll never be 5'10 w/ huge boobs. I'l only ever be 5'3 3/4. I'll be of average weight, and my hair won't be platinum. It will be brasy. My skin will never be flawless, My boobs will always be smaller than the average. My feet won't be a size 6, and neither will my dress size. But you know what, I have never been more beautiful than I am right now. I am so happy with my life, and I wouldn't change a thing about it, or about me.
I feel like I'm an ok person. I'm smart, I'm funny, and I catch on quickly. I can undersatnd romance languages (if not really speak them all that well), I've traveled the world, I love my family, and I have the best boyfriend a girl could want. But outside of all that, I am still me, and I am worthy of love. I don't have to feel undeserving anymore. I have a right to feel special, and you know what, I really really do. I thank God that I have been able to reach this point. I don't think I'll always feel this way, but I will be able to remember what it feels like to love myself.
So thank you to all of you who have helped me get to this point. I am so grateful to each of you. And Neil, Baby, I love you so much. You have made so much of this possible, and I have grown so much because I am with you. You are my light. I love you more than I could ever possibly express.
I feel like I'm an ok person. I'm smart, I'm funny, and I catch on quickly. I can undersatnd romance languages (if not really speak them all that well), I've traveled the world, I love my family, and I have the best boyfriend a girl could want. But outside of all that, I am still me, and I am worthy of love. I don't have to feel undeserving anymore. I have a right to feel special, and you know what, I really really do. I thank God that I have been able to reach this point. I don't think I'll always feel this way, but I will be able to remember what it feels like to love myself.
So thank you to all of you who have helped me get to this point. I am so grateful to each of you. And Neil, Baby, I love you so much. You have made so much of this possible, and I have grown so much because I am with you. You are my light. I love you more than I could ever possibly express.