Mission Accomplished
It's cat.
I don't know why but more and more recently I've been sad. I think maybe I'm just afraid of failure. There are some things that I want to do but I get scared. My biggest fear has always been of failing. Whether it be with my friends, my work or my school. Or my future I suppose. It's just kind of stupid cuz sometimes I get scared that I'll fail and lose the support of my parents my friends and even loved ones.
Sometimes I feel like I annoy everyone that I know and try to pull myself away from the world. In response I annoy people by trying to pull away from them. It's a strange crazy world and I dont' know why I get in these moods everyone now and then but sometimes I can get pretty damn depressed. Which of course is why I try to make everything into a joke. Because I personally feel that it is better to make jokes and try to make people laugh that to show how sad you are and make them miserable. I mean seriously if I am feeling sad why should I go and let others know how sad I am and then they'll get sad too. (Unless they are cruel mean people who live on 123 Fake street and then they would probably laugh I'm sure.....) But sometimes people get annoyed that I always make jokes. All I can do is apologize because making jokes in my opinion will always be better than completely letting life take a hold of me and drag me into being a depressed biotch with my head between my knees listening to dashboard confessional and crying my heart out. Vindicative.
I went to the dentist today. It was truly terrible. Immedietely just to teach me a lesson the lady helper proceeded to stab me in the gums with sharp thingies and then I had to close my eyes to hold the pain within. Then just when I thought she was done she poked me more and more. It was awful. I vowed then to never smoke because I felt it was the fault of smoking. Then I just found out that shes mean. It was truly a heartbreaking experience.
Which leads me down here in Espanola watching
Conan O'brien and doing laundry. I hung out with Audrey the other day. It was way fun she kept trying to make me talk but then when I opened my mouth Shana started talking so then I shut up right away. It was really fun. So I just sat there drawing Audrey tried to force me to talk and then Shana started talking right away. And people wonder why I stay quiet most of the time. It's cuz its never worth it to get a damn word in.
Which is just the way I like it most of the time.
Seacrest out.
I don't know why but more and more recently I've been sad. I think maybe I'm just afraid of failure. There are some things that I want to do but I get scared. My biggest fear has always been of failing. Whether it be with my friends, my work or my school. Or my future I suppose. It's just kind of stupid cuz sometimes I get scared that I'll fail and lose the support of my parents my friends and even loved ones.
Sometimes I feel like I annoy everyone that I know and try to pull myself away from the world. In response I annoy people by trying to pull away from them. It's a strange crazy world and I dont' know why I get in these moods everyone now and then but sometimes I can get pretty damn depressed. Which of course is why I try to make everything into a joke. Because I personally feel that it is better to make jokes and try to make people laugh that to show how sad you are and make them miserable. I mean seriously if I am feeling sad why should I go and let others know how sad I am and then they'll get sad too. (Unless they are cruel mean people who live on 123 Fake street and then they would probably laugh I'm sure.....) But sometimes people get annoyed that I always make jokes. All I can do is apologize because making jokes in my opinion will always be better than completely letting life take a hold of me and drag me into being a depressed biotch with my head between my knees listening to dashboard confessional and crying my heart out. Vindicative.
I went to the dentist today. It was truly terrible. Immedietely just to teach me a lesson the lady helper proceeded to stab me in the gums with sharp thingies and then I had to close my eyes to hold the pain within. Then just when I thought she was done she poked me more and more. It was awful. I vowed then to never smoke because I felt it was the fault of smoking. Then I just found out that shes mean. It was truly a heartbreaking experience.
Which leads me down here in Espanola watching
Conan O'brien and doing laundry. I hung out with Audrey the other day. It was way fun she kept trying to make me talk but then when I opened my mouth Shana started talking so then I shut up right away. It was really fun. So I just sat there drawing Audrey tried to force me to talk and then Shana started talking right away. And people wonder why I stay quiet most of the time. It's cuz its never worth it to get a damn word in.
Which is just the way I like it most of the time.
Seacrest out.