Can't Let You Go
Title: Can’t Let You Go
Author:
Fandom: Transformers
Prompt: Falling In Love Again
Character/Pairing: Flattop and his conscience.
Rating: G
Word Count: 683
Summary: Flattop tries to come to terms with his feelings for Pursuit.
Author’s Note/Disclaimer:
Flattop looked himself in the reflective panel and let out a short, sharp sigh. No, it wasn't possible and he absolutely refused to admit it. Primus take it all, they were just friends - very good friends - and nothing more. Yes, she was a sweet femme; yes, he liked her, but that was it. It all ended there. Nothing beyond that. He didn't want anything more than that.
Liar.
Alright, so she was pretty...
She's beautiful.
... and intelligent...
She's probably smarter than you.
... sensible...
She doesn't have your ego.
... had all the traits he quite liked in a bot...
She's everything you ever wanted.
... it was no wonder he liked her - as a friend.
You're falling in love with her.
Flattop shook his head violently to dispel that maddeningly annoying voice that just wouldn't leave him be. It was always there, in his head, putting all these crazy thoughts into his mind...
You should tell her how you feel.
... like that! He almost felt like slapping himself.
"Shut up! Just shut up! None of that means anything, she's my friend!" he said out loud.
She could be your lover.
"I don't see her any other way."
You want her as your lover.
"Argh!!!"
Don't deny it.
"Besides, she sees me as a friend, too."
She probably knows how you feel.
His shoulders slumped. This was hopeless. He was standing here and arguing with himself for Primus' sake. Could it get any more ridiculous than that?! He gave himself another shake, turned and headed out of his quarters. A good flight would probably do him good and clear his head of all these crazy thoughts. Yep, that's what he'd do. Transforming swiftly, he fired up his afterburners and shot into the sky, looping and barrel-rolling a few times before straightening out and cruising.
It was only after a good long while that he noticed he was hovering directly over the Nova Cronum Med Center.
"Fraggit!"
He could just about hear that voice cackling madly in his head.
You're hopeless. Just admit it: you love her.
He would not. Turbo-wolves could not drag it out of him, because there was nothing there to drag out. They were just friends. Just. Friends. He descended and transformed back to robot form. All he did was save her life and visit her during her recovery.
Stubborn fragger, aren't you?
There were no feelings involved whatsoever.
The why does your spark dance for joy whenever she smiles at you.
"Shut up!"
He pushed through the Med Center doors and headed inside, feet automatically turning in the direction of her room without a second thought, pace quickening the closer he got.
She's right for you.
She deserved someone better. His pace slowed. What could he possibly give her? She needed someone who could take care of her and not let her get hurt again. He was only an officer, what did he know about taking care of a femme? He wasn't right for her.
Why don't you let her decide?
He paused, frowning. Every passing day she was getting better and stronger. It wouldn't be long before the Med Center declared her completely healthy and released her. What would happen to her then? Where would she go, what would she do? Was he prepared to just let her go out there only to get hurt again by some brute of a mech who didn't know how special she was?
You can take care of her, keep her safe.
She trusted him. He could protect her, keep her from ever being harmed like that again. He resumed walking. There was no way he'd possibly be able to get her out of his mind, even if he did let her go. She would haunt him for the rest of his life. And he knew he would probably regret ever letting her go without telling her how he felt.
He reached her room door.
You love her.
"I love her."
Glad we finally agree on something.
He pushed the door open and stepped inside...
~END.
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Wrote this in under an hour and I have to say, this is my absolute favorite of all the prompts so far, mainly because it was so much fun to have that banter with Top