I spy the light
and its burning bright.
so havent updated in a while, seems ive been so busy. no time for the internet anymore. lifes hectic, works non-stop. ive realized life is going so fast now, its really depressing. it just goes and goes.. not like the old days. not like when mom dropped u off for school and it was gonna be 5 WHOLE hours before i saw her again. what pain, what torture.. man if only i knew then what i know now. that was a dream come true. one month, just one month, then it will be torture. its all i got left now till that hell starts. talk about depressing. talk about never seeing ur friends again. and for awhile it hadnt sunk in, i was kinda positive about- "oh theres always spring, summer, and winter" no there isnt. first i dont have that much time on those breaks, second, i know when i am free, things will work out that they WONT be free, and i wont get to see them, or theyll be actually using their vacations and goin places. its just such a bummer. im tryin to make the most of every last bit. its hard though. its hard.
been mad crazy with this yearbook deal. everyone goes all out on them and stuff. sign mine, sign mine, sign mine... it never ends! and i try to be sincere with all of them, but sometimes its like ugh im just done, no, no more im done for the day, if u insist, well dont expect much. and then u think and ure like man i wish i really got to tell him how important he was to me, too bad i blew it cause i "didnt feel like it" - writing that much- and on the topic, i think they look like crap. what shitty yearbooks. theyre ugly.
i heard about gillens mom tonight. its really sad. i hope kyle sean and liam are alright. my prayers go out to them. poor poor kyle. so much luck and hope for you. its just too bad that sean never put much forth though. i hope kyle stays on track, hes got a lot goin for him apparently.
Costa is coming. im so excited. to think it was so far away a while back. and now its here. already. its here. im so stoked. got my new boards on the line. should be done by tomorrow *crosses fingers* woo!
another good note, i got in touch w/ H-bomb. man another example of how time flies, shes all grown up, out the hood onto different things. miss ya Heid.
geez this sucks. im never gonna see yall again. i hope we manage to stay in touch. i wanna see how yall turn out. im gonna miss you. enjoy the time u got, i know how i was when i was there, oh i got a full year i got all this time with summer- You Dont. its simple as that. You Dont. dont waste it. enjoy every moment, dont hesitate to go to a game or enjoy hanging wiht ur friends cause you "got a test to study for" its not worth it, and u end up staying up till 1 anyways, so whats the use of wasting opportunities? "thats the end."
"Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold
Remember why you came and while your alive
experience the warmth before you go"
you're so beautiful.
cant wait for the 22nd. Noahs party is gonna be rediculous. EVERYONE GO. my friends band is hopefully playing- gonna be siiick! *crosses fingers times 3*
This all was only wishful thinking.
so havent updated in a while, seems ive been so busy. no time for the internet anymore. lifes hectic, works non-stop. ive realized life is going so fast now, its really depressing. it just goes and goes.. not like the old days. not like when mom dropped u off for school and it was gonna be 5 WHOLE hours before i saw her again. what pain, what torture.. man if only i knew then what i know now. that was a dream come true. one month, just one month, then it will be torture. its all i got left now till that hell starts. talk about depressing. talk about never seeing ur friends again. and for awhile it hadnt sunk in, i was kinda positive about- "oh theres always spring, summer, and winter" no there isnt. first i dont have that much time on those breaks, second, i know when i am free, things will work out that they WONT be free, and i wont get to see them, or theyll be actually using their vacations and goin places. its just such a bummer. im tryin to make the most of every last bit. its hard though. its hard.
been mad crazy with this yearbook deal. everyone goes all out on them and stuff. sign mine, sign mine, sign mine... it never ends! and i try to be sincere with all of them, but sometimes its like ugh im just done, no, no more im done for the day, if u insist, well dont expect much. and then u think and ure like man i wish i really got to tell him how important he was to me, too bad i blew it cause i "didnt feel like it" - writing that much- and on the topic, i think they look like crap. what shitty yearbooks. theyre ugly.
i heard about gillens mom tonight. its really sad. i hope kyle sean and liam are alright. my prayers go out to them. poor poor kyle. so much luck and hope for you. its just too bad that sean never put much forth though. i hope kyle stays on track, hes got a lot goin for him apparently.
Costa is coming. im so excited. to think it was so far away a while back. and now its here. already. its here. im so stoked. got my new boards on the line. should be done by tomorrow *crosses fingers* woo!
another good note, i got in touch w/ H-bomb. man another example of how time flies, shes all grown up, out the hood onto different things. miss ya Heid.
geez this sucks. im never gonna see yall again. i hope we manage to stay in touch. i wanna see how yall turn out. im gonna miss you. enjoy the time u got, i know how i was when i was there, oh i got a full year i got all this time with summer- You Dont. its simple as that. You Dont. dont waste it. enjoy every moment, dont hesitate to go to a game or enjoy hanging wiht ur friends cause you "got a test to study for" its not worth it, and u end up staying up till 1 anyways, so whats the use of wasting opportunities? "thats the end."
"Not everyone here is that fucked up and cold
Remember why you came and while your alive
experience the warmth before you go"
you're so beautiful.
cant wait for the 22nd. Noahs party is gonna be rediculous. EVERYONE GO. my friends band is hopefully playing- gonna be siiick! *crosses fingers times 3*
This all was only wishful thinking.