Another day in my playground...
Yea ill let u in this time.. but next time itll cost ya ;-)
Tyler ahh u are a punk!! stupid irresistible choclate fountain!! no wonder my throat hurts. eh oh well. I cant wait for team Sexy Shift!!
so today- took back tux, then banked the moolah, then hit that shit
surf repo- pretty fuun. solid head high+ at the pier. lots of closeouts, but also some fun makeable sections. it was big n chunky, wind was on it and choppy, but sloppy- just the way we like it. Christa was out looking cute as a- a- well, a button. Pro was out givin everyone autographs haggin on peoples ratty leashes lol. it was a good time. then got out and boys were playin vball so i jumped in for a lil bit.
Grad Bash is Friday!!!! wooo cant wait. its gonna be the DOPe SHOW!!! yea and no one can Fuck it Up thats right NO ONE!! "The HEll with You and ALL YOUR FRIENDS" -Taking Back Sunday is gonna be playing there CANT WAIT!!! more good times
Sunday im headin out. im super nervous, but so happy too. maybe life will be better now.
Karina-"The clubs play this stuff called Reggae Ton- you cant not move to that music" -aww yeaaah 36 days till C.R. ...*finally...*
the light is burning so bright
its right there, its in sight
but sometimes i fear
that it isnt so near
that i cant make it out,
that ill get trapped in here
that ill get torn down, not coming up- wont see my face,
wont know me anymore
youll take my photos off the wall, the memories erased,
the drawing was just a waste...
Mudvayne-"Forget To Remember"
What have I done?
Where have I come from?
When I burnt the backs with the sun through a glass did I seal the loss that's become me?
Feeling undone
What have I become?
When I turned my back on you I turned my back on myself and became this machine
Thoughtlessness
Selfishness
Hopelessness
Arrogant
I feel it on the inside
Twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again
Still feel you on the inside
Biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?
Shadows in the sun
Filter through us
Still wrestle the demons that arrested me as a child
Confession rejected
We grow up
To give up
People step on the cracks for wounds owed paid back
Through the words of surrender
Emptiness
Loneliness
Listlessness
Worthless
I feel it on the inside
Twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again
Still feel you on the inside
Biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?
Can you save me?
From myself
From these memories
Can you save me?
From myself
From these memories
Mudvayne-"All That You Are"
Repeating in my head
Betrayal
Repeating in my head
Insecurities
Repeating in my head
Dividends
It's not your fault
The well of thought and trust has run dry
Don't be afraid to let go
Don't be afraid to start over when it's over
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go
Let go of feelings
Let go of compromise
Hollow trunk for shelter
So dark and cold inside
I always seem to find myself alone
Jaded shell of being
Porous as a stone
Calloused
Rigid
Empty
Because of you
Let go of trusting
Lost thought for family
Let go of living
No more concerns of demise
I never seem to find rhythm for life's harmony
Contorted
Twisted broken
Without a reason
Calloused
Rigid
Empty
Because of you
It's all me
All you are
Without me
There's nothing else
There's no one
Brainwash
All you are
Without me
You're by yourself
There's no one
Hope is out of season
Lost sight
No hint of light
Get busy living or get busy dying
Calloused
Rigid
Empty
Because of you
It's all me
All you are
Without me
There's nothing else
There's no one
Brainwash
All you are
Without me
You're by yourself
There's no one
Save me
This loss
Closure my
Answer
So grant it
You owe me all that you are
Without me
You're nothing
You're no one
Terrified
Petrified
Nothing
You're no one
Do you care because I don't
Nothing
You're no one
Nobody cares so just go
Nothing
You're no one
By yourself all alone
It's all me
All you are
Without me
You're by yourself
There's no one
Brainwash
All you are
Without me
You're by yourself
There's no one
Save me
This loss
Closure my
Answer
So grant it
You owe me all that you are
Without me
You're nothing