screw
fuck.
i have so much to vent, some amazingly good and some pretty bad.
oh and it is amazing that this is my journal so i can complain or brag all i want and no one can do anything.
i guess i will start with the bad...
it is so shitty that i do not hang out with anyone from vhs anymore except amanda and elise, it is so shitty that i do not even give a care about what anyone thinks at school anymore, you can say all you want and i honestly don't care. why? because i know i ahve all the friends i need, and i know who's real. people piss me off.
it is SO shitty that i don't hang out with katie, that everything right now is just so weird. i don't talk to her and it feels like i have not heard months of stories. its shitty that she has been my best friend since kindergarden and we cannot spend our senior year friends. it is shitty that i am always in the worst triangles with people, even if there is never drama. the circles of people are HORRIBLE in my life. it is shitty that brooke was my inseperable best friend and now i do not even know what she enjoys, loves, or anything for that matter. its shitty when you want to make things better with people BUT YOU CAN'T. why? because there is no drama to make better it is just the friendship is not there anymore. its shitty that guys have sex with anything that moves even if they are disgusted by the girl. it is shitty that i drink every weekend cuz i have nothing better to do. it is even more shitty that i think of sweethearts as a hassle instead of something fun. it is shitty that i do not have anyone to be with all the time. it is shitty that there is not that one boy you can tell anything and everything to...it is shitty that hookups are so shitty. it is shitty that on new years i kissed someone i dont truly care about. its shitty that my classes make me feel like i have never learned anything in my life. it is shitty that people are so judgemental. IT IS BEYOND SHITTY THAT THE CHARGERS LOST, AND THAT WE HAVE KAEDING AS A KICKER. it is shitty that u have not seen my brother in 3 days. its shitty how people change, i suck at changing. im so not good at dealing with it, honestly...i suck. it is shitty that valentines day is coming up and i get to spend it with probably no one, or bfg. its still nto special. its shitty that people at work dont pull their own weight. its shitty that i drag my ass to school and work day after day and it makes me want to sky dive or something exhilerating because i am so sick of routine. it is shitty that i am a shitty friend and am so on and off with people. it is shitty that i just stop talking for no reason and start again for no reason. its shitty that i suck so bad. its shitty how people can be so selfish.
its amazing that i have bfg in my life. it is amazing that adrian elise and squeaks are like my life. it is amazing that i can hook up with people then be the best opf friends. it is amazing that i actually am excited for sweethearts even if it is a hassle. it is amazing that adrian and cary make breakfast for bfg girls. it is amazing that bfg girls are making dinner for bfg boys on friday. IT IS AMAZING THAT IT SNOWED ON SATURDAY HERE. and that it was my first time in the snow. it is amazing that my first time in the snow was with my best friends ever. it is amazing that my sprites show is like here and i am a senior and i have a whole bio to read and my own moment on stage. it is amazing that i am almost out of high school. it is amazing that the chargers had a 14-2 season. it is amazing that i mean someone new everyday i am at adrians. it is amazing that i do not need to be with people from vhs to be happy. it is amazing that bfg consists of like 4 different schools. it is amazing that i am getting wood floor in my house and it is slippery. it is amazing to buy a new dress and feel good in it. it is amazing to have good friends even if you dont talk for a while, but to pick up where you left off. it is amazing that BFG PARTIES EVERY WEEKEND AND NEVER LEAVES EACHOTHERS SIDE. it is amazing that i can be my total self and not feel stupid ever.its amazing that i know what i want to do for the rest of my life. it is amazing that i am completely content with my friends, even the ones i wave to in the halls. it is amazing that i love elise adrian squeaks hay and cary. it is amazing that my friends can have such a big impact on my life. it iss amaaaazing that the vhs girls are not taking granite boys to sweethearts this year. HAHA. it is amazing that i love my fam and they love me. its amaaazing that everything i have said is amazing has to do with my friends. its amazing that my brother just got home and i am going to eat the cheesecake i bought him with him. it is amazing that jimmy eat world, say anything, and rap are so fucking good. it is amazing that I LOVE LIFE NO MATTER WHAT IS GOING WRONG.
its shitty that no one cares to read this
its amazing because it made me feel good to vent about the good and bad.
kaydie lynn papciak
i have so much to vent, some amazingly good and some pretty bad.
oh and it is amazing that this is my journal so i can complain or brag all i want and no one can do anything.
i guess i will start with the bad...
it is so shitty that i do not hang out with anyone from vhs anymore except amanda and elise, it is so shitty that i do not even give a care about what anyone thinks at school anymore, you can say all you want and i honestly don't care. why? because i know i ahve all the friends i need, and i know who's real. people piss me off.
it is SO shitty that i don't hang out with katie, that everything right now is just so weird. i don't talk to her and it feels like i have not heard months of stories. its shitty that she has been my best friend since kindergarden and we cannot spend our senior year friends. it is shitty that i am always in the worst triangles with people, even if there is never drama. the circles of people are HORRIBLE in my life. it is shitty that brooke was my inseperable best friend and now i do not even know what she enjoys, loves, or anything for that matter. its shitty when you want to make things better with people BUT YOU CAN'T. why? because there is no drama to make better it is just the friendship is not there anymore. its shitty that guys have sex with anything that moves even if they are disgusted by the girl. it is shitty that i drink every weekend cuz i have nothing better to do. it is even more shitty that i think of sweethearts as a hassle instead of something fun. it is shitty that i do not have anyone to be with all the time. it is shitty that there is not that one boy you can tell anything and everything to...it is shitty that hookups are so shitty. it is shitty that on new years i kissed someone i dont truly care about. its shitty that my classes make me feel like i have never learned anything in my life. it is shitty that people are so judgemental. IT IS BEYOND SHITTY THAT THE CHARGERS LOST, AND THAT WE HAVE KAEDING AS A KICKER. it is shitty that u have not seen my brother in 3 days. its shitty how people change, i suck at changing. im so not good at dealing with it, honestly...i suck. it is shitty that valentines day is coming up and i get to spend it with probably no one, or bfg. its still nto special. its shitty that people at work dont pull their own weight. its shitty that i drag my ass to school and work day after day and it makes me want to sky dive or something exhilerating because i am so sick of routine. it is shitty that i am a shitty friend and am so on and off with people. it is shitty that i just stop talking for no reason and start again for no reason. its shitty that i suck so bad. its shitty how people can be so selfish.
its amazing that i have bfg in my life. it is amazing that adrian elise and squeaks are like my life. it is amazing that i can hook up with people then be the best opf friends. it is amazing that i actually am excited for sweethearts even if it is a hassle. it is amazing that adrian and cary make breakfast for bfg girls. it is amazing that bfg girls are making dinner for bfg boys on friday. IT IS AMAZING THAT IT SNOWED ON SATURDAY HERE. and that it was my first time in the snow. it is amazing that my first time in the snow was with my best friends ever. it is amazing that my sprites show is like here and i am a senior and i have a whole bio to read and my own moment on stage. it is amazing that i am almost out of high school. it is amazing that the chargers had a 14-2 season. it is amazing that i mean someone new everyday i am at adrians. it is amazing that i do not need to be with people from vhs to be happy. it is amazing that bfg consists of like 4 different schools. it is amazing that i am getting wood floor in my house and it is slippery. it is amazing to buy a new dress and feel good in it. it is amazing to have good friends even if you dont talk for a while, but to pick up where you left off. it is amazing that BFG PARTIES EVERY WEEKEND AND NEVER LEAVES EACHOTHERS SIDE. it is amazing that i can be my total self and not feel stupid ever.its amazing that i know what i want to do for the rest of my life. it is amazing that i am completely content with my friends, even the ones i wave to in the halls. it is amazing that i love elise adrian squeaks hay and cary. it is amazing that my friends can have such a big impact on my life. it iss amaaaazing that the vhs girls are not taking granite boys to sweethearts this year. HAHA. it is amazing that i love my fam and they love me. its amaaazing that everything i have said is amazing has to do with my friends. its amazing that my brother just got home and i am going to eat the cheesecake i bought him with him. it is amazing that jimmy eat world, say anything, and rap are so fucking good. it is amazing that I LOVE LIFE NO MATTER WHAT IS GOING WRONG.
its shitty that no one cares to read this
its amazing because it made me feel good to vent about the good and bad.
kaydie lynn papciak