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Hellooo!
It's pretty late for me to be up, even though its a weekend and all...but I felt like writing a quick update. Here it goes:
Tonight, Mark was working and he suggested that I come down to see him. Originally Lauren and I kinda talked about going, but she wasn't feeling too good, so she went home for the night. (Probably a good idea to not go to a smokey bar when your not feeling good and your throat hurts) So, I began trying to find someone who wanted to go down - this proved to be a bit of a challenge. After a few failed attempts, I decided to give Pat a call. I figured he may be up for a visit down to Pussers, I mean, after all, he loves Annapolis. Ever since high school, when my ex yelled at me for making friends with his friends, I've always felt weird about hanging out with a boyfiend's friend without him. And although the thought still lingers in my head, I feel as if I can say, that Mark's friends have become my friends, too and I think tonight could prove that. Pat met up with me around 8:30ish and we conversed about a variety of meaningful topics for a good four hours. I really enjoy hanging out with Pat because, (and I quote) Pat has "an opinion about everything" so there is always something to talk about. An although our opinions may differ on various topics, I respect his opinions and I'm fairly certain that it is reciprocated. I appreciate the opportunity to converse with someone who has an openmind to the world. I know that in the little time I've know Pat, in the 6 months without him here, I will miss his company, and for Mark and his other closest friends, I know the same hold true.
After tonight's conversation and listening to the Wicked Sountrack on the way home, I was kinda of thinking about what is important in life. And really, I couldn't feel more blessed. I just want to say thank you to all the people who help shape me into the person I am today, and the people who continue to leave an imprint in my life. Sometimes life takes a course that you may have not expected, where you face tragedy, heartbreak and pain, but my grandma used to say, "everything happens for a reason" and I have to believe that its true. I believe that there is a good that comes from everything, and that if you try to find that good in whatever you may face, I believe you will have become a better individual.
Maybe this doesn't all make sense...I'm kinda having a hard time putting words to everything, but I'll leave with some lyrics from Wicked:
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you:
I have been changed for good
Till next time
-xox-
It's pretty late for me to be up, even though its a weekend and all...but I felt like writing a quick update. Here it goes:
Tonight, Mark was working and he suggested that I come down to see him. Originally Lauren and I kinda talked about going, but she wasn't feeling too good, so she went home for the night. (Probably a good idea to not go to a smokey bar when your not feeling good and your throat hurts) So, I began trying to find someone who wanted to go down - this proved to be a bit of a challenge. After a few failed attempts, I decided to give Pat a call. I figured he may be up for a visit down to Pussers, I mean, after all, he loves Annapolis. Ever since high school, when my ex yelled at me for making friends with his friends, I've always felt weird about hanging out with a boyfiend's friend without him. And although the thought still lingers in my head, I feel as if I can say, that Mark's friends have become my friends, too and I think tonight could prove that. Pat met up with me around 8:30ish and we conversed about a variety of meaningful topics for a good four hours. I really enjoy hanging out with Pat because, (and I quote) Pat has "an opinion about everything" so there is always something to talk about. An although our opinions may differ on various topics, I respect his opinions and I'm fairly certain that it is reciprocated. I appreciate the opportunity to converse with someone who has an openmind to the world. I know that in the little time I've know Pat, in the 6 months without him here, I will miss his company, and for Mark and his other closest friends, I know the same hold true.
After tonight's conversation and listening to the Wicked Sountrack on the way home, I was kinda of thinking about what is important in life. And really, I couldn't feel more blessed. I just want to say thank you to all the people who help shape me into the person I am today, and the people who continue to leave an imprint in my life. Sometimes life takes a course that you may have not expected, where you face tragedy, heartbreak and pain, but my grandma used to say, "everything happens for a reason" and I have to believe that its true. I believe that there is a good that comes from everything, and that if you try to find that good in whatever you may face, I believe you will have become a better individual.
Maybe this doesn't all make sense...I'm kinda having a hard time putting words to everything, but I'll leave with some lyrics from Wicked:
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you:
I have been changed for good
Till next time
-xox-