Sucks being poor

[papius18]

So, its Friday night, and I'm just chillin. Not really doing anything tonigh. Brian and Dan wanted to go to ice skate, but I wasn't really feeling it. Liz wanted Mark and I to go to Fur with her and her girlfriends, but I wasn't really feelin that either. The main thing is, I don't have money for all these things. I don't make a whole lot at work, and as lucky as I am that I don't have to pay for school, I still have to pay for book (which cost a LOT this semester) and all. So, the money I make, I have to save - either to pay for credit card bills (which I'm trying to keep to a minimum) or saving up for a car. I need to have a car this summer, especially if I go to Florida to intern. I'd get to stay with my aunt and uncle, but she said I need my own way of tranportation. I don't like feeling restricted by money. When ever I go out, Mark's been nice enough to pay, but I feel bad having to rely on that. Now, I know that some poeple say that the guy is naturally supposed to pay or that he doesn't mind and I shouldn't feel bad, but I do. Ever since I was like, 12, I relied on myself to pay for recreational things. I don't feel right bumming off other people, mostly Mark. It's not like he's better off than me. Granted, he makes more from his job, but he doesn't work often and he's got a ton of responsibilities. I feel like a burden to him sometimes.

I'm sorry to everyone I've been sucky too.. .Mark especially. Hopefully, next semester I'll have a better job = less stressing over money (or lack there of.)

Till next time.

PS - I had a really good time today with Mark, Liz and Lenny at lunch...and I got a bathingsuit from quicksilver for cheap! YAY!