let your hair down, girl.
sometimes it can be hard to find the silver lining of the cloud. but i keep telling myself that everything happens for a reason though. today, like others, i feel especially content with this optimistic creed. having a day to myself, to just do, whatever i want was so liberating. i gave me time to clean my car, (first time since the accident), and buy magazines, hang out with my friends, and be spontaneous. life is so unexpected sometimes, and it often leaves me begging the question why? why did i get in that accident? why did those kittens find milena? why did i ever think i could have one of them? why did i stay home from grand rapids today? why did i see that deer getting on the freeway? why did we just keep driving and go to the airport? why do some people just make life worth living? -- today, i just feel like i have all the answers.
the route we take to get to a restaurant.
the songs we listen to together.
what makes us laugh.
what makes us want to do things.
the memories we make.
every thing, every move, every word is just one little choice that makes the world of difference in our ordinary, cookie cutter lives. it's the stuff that we'll be talking about in 10 years. maybe to each other, maybe to someone else. it's these little moments of sunshine in the storm that helps explain the "why" to some of our unanswered questions.
i watched a movie for a second time last night, and partly today. it made me think. a life isn't worth living without a person to love. that's what the whole movie was saying. all their lives they attempted to reach this plateau of passion, and fondness, and bonding, and companionship. and there was never a perfect time. waiting for that "right moment" never came. and eventually it was all too little, too late. this could perhaps be my greatest fear realized. if that time never comes and we are not destined to be together, will i always feel this hole? this emptiness? the void? the hollow sound of a knock at my window... never imagining it could be him. what do i do? how can this unexpectedness ever have an answer to my "why?"
i must stay optimistic.
the route we take to get to a restaurant.
the songs we listen to together.
what makes us laugh.
what makes us want to do things.
the memories we make.
every thing, every move, every word is just one little choice that makes the world of difference in our ordinary, cookie cutter lives. it's the stuff that we'll be talking about in 10 years. maybe to each other, maybe to someone else. it's these little moments of sunshine in the storm that helps explain the "why" to some of our unanswered questions.
i watched a movie for a second time last night, and partly today. it made me think. a life isn't worth living without a person to love. that's what the whole movie was saying. all their lives they attempted to reach this plateau of passion, and fondness, and bonding, and companionship. and there was never a perfect time. waiting for that "right moment" never came. and eventually it was all too little, too late. this could perhaps be my greatest fear realized. if that time never comes and we are not destined to be together, will i always feel this hole? this emptiness? the void? the hollow sound of a knock at my window... never imagining it could be him. what do i do? how can this unexpectedness ever have an answer to my "why?"
i must stay optimistic.