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it's easier to do "rabbit, rabbit, hare, hare" when you live alone. i hope it brings me something. :o)
::sigh:: i'm so tired of waking up tired. i finally went to be last night at 12:30 and to no avail. i feel no rest, i feel like i could fall right back asleep if need be. but that's not the need be -- the need be = campus tour. since i have to venture to like, EVERY reach of campus today i decided that i needed a different MOT (mod of transportation) besides my feet. the busses are all fucked up on the weekends, so michelle is loaning me her bike. i don't know if can seriously remember the last time i rode a bike. they wouldn't have made the phrase "like riding a bike" if they didn't meant it, right? yeahhh... this should be an adventure. but at least a short adventure because i will get there in the speed of sound.
i need to eat some breakfast and do my hair and give a real update.
(15 minutes later...)
these past few days have been -- not what i had expected. maybe, i could even say, haven't been what i wanted. but sometimes to get the things we need we have to endure the things we don't want. or things that we didn't think we wanted. having pat come visit was really nice. to just have that connection, that closeness, that history to laugh and cry about. it's irreplaceable. he makes me feel so, alive. so pretty. so happy. all the things i wish i would have felt when he was my boyfriend. but if wishes were horses then beggars would ride. and mama didn't raise no begga'.
sometimes you have to wonder about people. wonder about their morals and values and outlook on life. like, where do people get off on keeping things bottled up inside themselves? and furthermore, where do they get off on thinking that non-confrontational situations as a result of keeping things bottled up inside is the MATURE thing to do? i seriously wonder... and beyond all that -- i think whens someone says "you always get your way, you always have to get what you want," that might sound like it carries a negative connotation. but i realized the past couple days, no! it does not! getting your way and getting what you want are almost compliments. i get what i want because i know what i want and i usually know how to get it. if anything, i think these little slanderous phrases should be embraced, and envied. because let's face it -- at the end of the day life's really nothing if you can't get what you need. and life will be disappointing if you can't have what you want.
"blackbird fly, blackbird fly
into the light of a dark black night"
::sigh:: i'm so tired of waking up tired. i finally went to be last night at 12:30 and to no avail. i feel no rest, i feel like i could fall right back asleep if need be. but that's not the need be -- the need be = campus tour. since i have to venture to like, EVERY reach of campus today i decided that i needed a different MOT (mod of transportation) besides my feet. the busses are all fucked up on the weekends, so michelle is loaning me her bike. i don't know if can seriously remember the last time i rode a bike. they wouldn't have made the phrase "like riding a bike" if they didn't meant it, right? yeahhh... this should be an adventure. but at least a short adventure because i will get there in the speed of sound.
i need to eat some breakfast and do my hair and give a real update.
(15 minutes later...)
these past few days have been -- not what i had expected. maybe, i could even say, haven't been what i wanted. but sometimes to get the things we need we have to endure the things we don't want. or things that we didn't think we wanted. having pat come visit was really nice. to just have that connection, that closeness, that history to laugh and cry about. it's irreplaceable. he makes me feel so, alive. so pretty. so happy. all the things i wish i would have felt when he was my boyfriend. but if wishes were horses then beggars would ride. and mama didn't raise no begga'.
sometimes you have to wonder about people. wonder about their morals and values and outlook on life. like, where do people get off on keeping things bottled up inside themselves? and furthermore, where do they get off on thinking that non-confrontational situations as a result of keeping things bottled up inside is the MATURE thing to do? i seriously wonder... and beyond all that -- i think whens someone says "you always get your way, you always have to get what you want," that might sound like it carries a negative connotation. but i realized the past couple days, no! it does not! getting your way and getting what you want are almost compliments. i get what i want because i know what i want and i usually know how to get it. if anything, i think these little slanderous phrases should be embraced, and envied. because let's face it -- at the end of the day life's really nothing if you can't get what you need. and life will be disappointing if you can't have what you want.
"blackbird fly, blackbird fly
into the light of a dark black night"