The Wish List
I wish...
...I was screeming "Total Eclipse of the Heart atthe top of my lungs with my Bennington crew right now.
...I had a job that didn't make me completely wiped out.
...I was as attractive to men after a week of them knowing me as I am when they see me in a bar.
...I didn't have walls so high.
...I could not be so fucking different from everyone all the time.
...I didn't spend 85% of my time thinking about how everyone must find me to be the most anoying person on the planet.
...I didn't feel like a talentless hack.
...my aunt could stop being a bitch for more than five seconds.
...I hadn't gone through 8 deths in 6 months in a city that makes me feel completely alone.
... I was capable of having male friendships without completely being unhealthy about it and, in the end, just ruining it all.
...I wish I wasn't so afraid of the phone.
...I could play music without dealing with my fears of anybody hearing me.
...Icould let people in before I alienate them.
...I still had the support I had in college.
...I wasn't so figity.
...I hadn't gone there that night.
...my mom was happier.
...my dad had lived atleast five more years.
...I could sleep easier.
...I could be the person I claim to be inregards to relationship theories.
... Ihad a keyboard that didn't suck.
...I could find a niche that made me really happy.
...I didn't feel like I had a bigger hand in making it worse than I did helping over the years.
...I had more things normal about me than converting oxegen to carbon dioxide and being a bi-ped.
...I was screeming "Total Eclipse of the Heart atthe top of my lungs with my Bennington crew right now.
...I had a job that didn't make me completely wiped out.
...I was as attractive to men after a week of them knowing me as I am when they see me in a bar.
...I didn't have walls so high.
...I could not be so fucking different from everyone all the time.
...I didn't spend 85% of my time thinking about how everyone must find me to be the most anoying person on the planet.
...I didn't feel like a talentless hack.
...my aunt could stop being a bitch for more than five seconds.
...I hadn't gone through 8 deths in 6 months in a city that makes me feel completely alone.
... I was capable of having male friendships without completely being unhealthy about it and, in the end, just ruining it all.
...I wish I wasn't so afraid of the phone.
...I could play music without dealing with my fears of anybody hearing me.
...Icould let people in before I alienate them.
...I still had the support I had in college.
...I wasn't so figity.
...I hadn't gone there that night.
...my mom was happier.
...my dad had lived atleast five more years.
...I could sleep easier.
...I could be the person I claim to be inregards to relationship theories.
... Ihad a keyboard that didn't suck.
...I could find a niche that made me really happy.
...I didn't feel like I had a bigger hand in making it worse than I did helping over the years.
...I had more things normal about me than converting oxegen to carbon dioxide and being a bi-ped.