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i got new glasses. and sunglasses. this is the first time for new frames since i was 13. and the sunglasses are altogether new. nice too. im pleased.
north carolina was pretty good. i saw the biltmore estate (the largest house in the united states)and drove through the smokey mountains national park from cherokee, nc (the big cherokee reservation) to gatlanburg, tn (looks like an amusement park that you can drive through, really strange town near dollyworld). it was neat. i technically stayed in maggie valley, nc which is this pretty little valley town in between the mountains. despite my grandfathers terrifying driving it wasnt too bad at all. ive discovered that my uncle and i have nothing in common. hes a pompous ass that i only deal with because hes family. its actually the only thing keeping me from smacking him.
the brunswick naval air station closed. its kind of a weird feeling that my earliest memories will now have nothing to tie to them. i lived there when i was little and now it will be stripped down and hopefully redeveloped into businesses and homes for the city of brunswick. its really sad to know how hard that place is going to be hit and to know that 5000 people will be without jobs and to know how scary and hard thats going to be for them. the tiny house we used to live in will be gone. it makes me wonder what will happen to the ghosts that live there. does that mean theyll just be forced to wander the open land for eternity, never being able to make a small child laugh again? and what will happen to fatboys? its the drive in dinner up there that was a staple of my childhood and the one thing that makes my family and i make a trip up there every summer for one of their great burgers and shakes. fatboys sits right across the street from the base and has been there for longer than either of my parents have been alive. what will happen to them?
in other news. andy and i probably wont last more than a few more days i dont think. im going to try as hard as i can to not give in. im finding his promises of being different from all the rest and actually caring about are quite empty. it actually really bums me out. i liked him. i know it isnt going anywhere but it still sucks to know that ive been fooled again. im convinced that im not meant to be in love. ever. perhaps i should really just give up on the whole thing. even though i kind of have. its been almost 4 years since anything meaningful has happened and if i have to see another couple im going to puke. i envy them so much.
i guess i have a lot of thinking to do.
north carolina was pretty good. i saw the biltmore estate (the largest house in the united states)and drove through the smokey mountains national park from cherokee, nc (the big cherokee reservation) to gatlanburg, tn (looks like an amusement park that you can drive through, really strange town near dollyworld). it was neat. i technically stayed in maggie valley, nc which is this pretty little valley town in between the mountains. despite my grandfathers terrifying driving it wasnt too bad at all. ive discovered that my uncle and i have nothing in common. hes a pompous ass that i only deal with because hes family. its actually the only thing keeping me from smacking him.
the brunswick naval air station closed. its kind of a weird feeling that my earliest memories will now have nothing to tie to them. i lived there when i was little and now it will be stripped down and hopefully redeveloped into businesses and homes for the city of brunswick. its really sad to know how hard that place is going to be hit and to know that 5000 people will be without jobs and to know how scary and hard thats going to be for them. the tiny house we used to live in will be gone. it makes me wonder what will happen to the ghosts that live there. does that mean theyll just be forced to wander the open land for eternity, never being able to make a small child laugh again? and what will happen to fatboys? its the drive in dinner up there that was a staple of my childhood and the one thing that makes my family and i make a trip up there every summer for one of their great burgers and shakes. fatboys sits right across the street from the base and has been there for longer than either of my parents have been alive. what will happen to them?
in other news. andy and i probably wont last more than a few more days i dont think. im going to try as hard as i can to not give in. im finding his promises of being different from all the rest and actually caring about are quite empty. it actually really bums me out. i liked him. i know it isnt going anywhere but it still sucks to know that ive been fooled again. im convinced that im not meant to be in love. ever. perhaps i should really just give up on the whole thing. even though i kind of have. its been almost 4 years since anything meaningful has happened and if i have to see another couple im going to puke. i envy them so much.
i guess i have a lot of thinking to do.