um, i guess its time for an update. a censored update...
so im working to get past alot of the things that have been bothering me lately. there was more than i realized and alot of things that may also be affecting my mood that i hadnt even accounted for. i think im probably in denial around them. i dont want to talk about them really. not here. i dont think i want this to be that personal anymore. there are people i cant trust.
i found out about an hour ago that my grandmother is in the hospital. ugh, i really hope shes going to be ok. i just cross my fingers and wait for an update from mom. trying to remember to breathe.
moms birthday is the fourth and i still need to get her a gift and mail it up there. its going to be late but i dont think it will be too big of a deal.
i think im going to close off for awhile. theres some stuff i need to work out and i dont know who to talk to about it, so im just going to work it out myself. its how ive always done it, so im hoping it works again. though ive never had things quite like this to work through.
i think i prefer to be alone. if i could find a way to hole up in my room and never come out yet still pass my classes, i would. im going to start thinking about it. the world is just too much and too many people are stupid and annoying. myself included it would seem as of late.
dont know why i updated, i got tired of looking at the same entry. i dont even want to talk or think anymore.
i found out about an hour ago that my grandmother is in the hospital. ugh, i really hope shes going to be ok. i just cross my fingers and wait for an update from mom. trying to remember to breathe.
moms birthday is the fourth and i still need to get her a gift and mail it up there. its going to be late but i dont think it will be too big of a deal.
i think im going to close off for awhile. theres some stuff i need to work out and i dont know who to talk to about it, so im just going to work it out myself. its how ive always done it, so im hoping it works again. though ive never had things quite like this to work through.
i think i prefer to be alone. if i could find a way to hole up in my room and never come out yet still pass my classes, i would. im going to start thinking about it. the world is just too much and too many people are stupid and annoying. myself included it would seem as of late.
dont know why i updated, i got tired of looking at the same entry. i dont even want to talk or think anymore.